only bullshit (cancelled)

part 9

April 16th, 2018
Heathers pov:

The last few days have been.. rough. I tried to apologize to moe for what i said, i mean i didn't mean it.. Well- I didn't mean most of it.. I guess? Shes in all of my classes, but i only ever see her in like 2.. And she doesn't talk to me or make eye contact with me.

I felt terrible. She always comes to class looking like she hasn't slept in days, and is just back to her normal self.. Being a bitch. I mean i did understand why she was upset, but damn i didn't think it would last 2 weeks already? Probably the rest of the year..

Im sure she definitely hates me now. Me and ray began talking again, he was the only boy i truly loved.. Well he was the only person who dated me, moe did too i guess? I think that was just a one time thing but not quite sure..

And then tonight, me and ray went to a drive-in theater at a abandoned park, we were watching some marvel movie that ray picked i guess.. It was boring as fuck so i was just on my phone most of the time.

But right now.. We got a bit distracted. We were dry humping in the back of his truck.

"Fuck heather." Ray moaned. He was so annoying when he got like this, he never would shut the fuck up and just enjoy it. I sighed, feeling him through his jeans. He changed so much from last year, it was awkward.

He attacked my neck and i just felt saliva. 'What the fuck is up with this dude?' I thought to myself.. Maybe this was a bad idea. He was never this bad at sex..

He attacked my lips again and we just made out. He smacked my ass and i moaned, it felt nice but.. Very harsh. "You're so beautiful. Fuck, i've been waiting this for so long." He groaned. I rolled my eyes, "You got a condom?" I asked him. He nodded, reaching over me taking it out of his bag.

He opened it with his mouth, trying way to hard to look hot.. i sighed. He unbuttoned my shorts, pulling them down a bit and pushing my underwear to the side. I bit my lip, he unbuckled his jeans. Pulling his member out, i forgot how small it was.

'Well shit.' I thought. We kissed again and he put half of himself in me, we moaned. He slowly went in and out until he kissed my collarbone and looked at me. I saw moe for a second, gasping. I pushed him off, grabbing my clothes.

"Wh-..Did i do something?" Ray asked, confused. "N-No! No..I just i have to go." I tried to explain. "Heather-" I got out of his car, covering my ears from the loud movie. I ran out and was lost. I called my mom to see if she could pick me up.

She didn't answer so i texted her, she told me she was on her way so i fixed my hair and tried covering my neck a bit.. Ray left tons of marks.. Soon my mom arrived and i sighed of relief. Wanting to get the fuck out of here.

"Hey kiddo." My mom smiled. "Hi." I told her, sitting down in the passenger seat. "You okay? I heard you were with ray.. Did you guys break up again? Forget a condom?" She exclaimed. "Mom!" I looked at her, widening my eyes. She put her hands up, "Sorry jeez.." I shook my head, looking out the window.

We drove off, the car ride home was silent.. I got home and just tossed my bag somewhere in my room on the floor. After what happened tonight i think it would be good to text moe.. Or at least see how she's doing..

I decided to call her.. Just at least try to here her voice again. I missed it, but her more. I bit my lip, hesitating. I dialed her number, pressing the 'Call' button. I squinted my eyes shut, too embarrassed to even think. Regretting my decisions.

It took a second for her to answer, that goddamn voice. "Hello?" I heard her raspy voice going in and out. "Hey..Hi- I..Erm hi!" I told her, i began walking around my room. "Uhm..Hi?" I began to chew on my nails, "How are you?" I whispered.

She stood there for a second, "Uh.. Okay? I guess? Why did you call." She asked curiously. "I..I don't know. Im sorry i shouldn't have called.. I- I gotta go-" I shuttered. She cut me off, "No, no i uh.. Im glad you called." I raised my eyebrows, feeling my cheeks getting warm. "Really?"

"Yeah." She told me. "Oh..Okay cool..cool." She cleared her throat, "So. How are you and r-...ray?" She asked. I furrowed my eyebrows. "What..What do you mean?" I asked, wondering how the fuck she would know that. "I was at the drive-in.. i saw you guys." I gulped, wondering if she saw.. Us fucking.

"What..What did you s-see?" I asked her. "..??Nothing just i saw you two together." I sighed of relief, "O-oh..No we aren't a thing we just-" I tried to explain. "It's okay heather. I'm not mad." She whispered under her breath. "You aren't?" I asked softly. "No."

"Heather-.. I'm sorry. About everything, i didn't mean for anyone to-" I cut her off, "No. It's my fault, i shouldn't had said those mean things to you.. I really do like you moe i just. I felt like, i don't know.. We were making moving too quickly?" I tried to explain.

"I understand.. I don't uh i don't care if you like ray too i-" "No that was just.. That wasn't anything. It was just something to get you off my mind." I told her. "I don't care how long it takes.. I'll wait for you."

"You will?.." I asked. "As long as it takes. I just want you." She whispered. We just sat there for a minute, enjoying each others time. "Well i have to go.. It's getting pretty late." i told her, sighing. "Okay! Cool.. Uhm thanks for c-calling. I appreciate it." She told me. I smiled, "Of course.. I'll see you tomorrow?" I asked awkwardly. "You got it."

We giggled, said our goodbyes and hanged up. I'm glad she finally decided to talk go me.. Well maybe she was just waiting for me to talk to her. I was so confused what i wanted at that moment, but i began to realize how much moe loved me.. Maybe this is right. Am i in-love with my best friend?
Or am i just crazy for a relationship?

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Sorry this is like horrible- im so tired and i have like no motivation right now.. I'll hopefully make a longer part tomorrow, good night :)