Forever and Always.

Chapter Ten

Joshua and I made a promise last summer of 2012. We promised we’d never fall for each other, luckily he did not know that I had already fallen for him before the summer had even begun.

Now here is a secret. ..

I made that promise because at first, I didn’t want him falling for me at all. Not one bit, I didn’t want him to see me that way.

I guess you could say I was scared. Scared that if he did, then what if the same thing would happen to me? What if he fell out?

But I knew he was going to stay true to his word as our pinkies intertwined. He smiled at that moment and I knew I was stuck. I wasn’t ready, I wasn’t ready at all. I couldn’t tell him my feelings, I couldn’t tell him everything!

The only part that kind of stunk was that he knew…

He knew I liked him because I had admitted it again during the summer and I’d have to say this second rejection was a bit harder.

OKAY OKAY, I wouldn’t call it a rejection but his words hurt me… we were messaging each other because that was usually the only way he could talk to me. We were talking about the promise.

       Catalina; HEY!! Not my fault :P and I am sorry I fell for you :( I broke the promise! I’M SORRY!!

       Joshua;  haha its okay because I didn’t break it.

AND THAT RIGHT THERE, “I didn’t break it,” basically a slap to my face! Oh course he doesn’t like you Catalina! Get that in your head girl! Stop getting your hopes up!!

I didn’t listen to my brain though. I prayed to God that He would provide the answer and he fortunately did, as He always does.

Hope, I saw it in Joshua’s eyes all the time.

I saw the love that consumed his heart. I saw the patience he gave others. I saw his smile which made me tremble with love!

I was in love.

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Short chapter today! Just thought about this today and was like, HEYY, I should write a chapter on it.

But Joshua if you are reading this…. DON’T YOU DARE FEEL BAD! I promise everything is okay!

Again, I just wanted to thank all of you readers. I have a total of 155 READS! That is awesome, YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME! But anyways, ENJOY!

love, catalinasmiles