Forever and Always.

Chapter Thirteen

October 12, 2013.

I will never ever forget this day! Oh my, what an amazing day it was.

I was waiting anxiously and absolutely nervous because Joshua hadn’t talked to me for a full week.

I already knew what he was doing though. He was choosing. And I was scared.

But I depended on God and let Him calm my storm of worries. It helped; I occupied myself in the Gospel and concentrated on school and family.

But in the back of my mind, he always lingered there.

I ignored it until one amazing day when I got a message. It was from Joshua!! He was finally talking to me again and I silently thanked God for not removing him from my life.

He said he needed to talk… and I got nervous.

Heavenly Father, please give me the strength to endure this day and may all that I say and do be in the Glory of you.

When I messaged Joshua back, he sounded so sad. No smileys and he was obviously stressed. I blamed myself for the cause of his pain. I should have prevented it but no, instead I caused it.

I was so ashamed of myself. I should of tried talking to him and telling him that it was going to be okay. I should have told him I would stay in his life and not disappear.

But I didn’t and we didn’t talk for days. They felt like forever too.

Today was the day. The day where Joshua would tell me that he was in love with some other girl. That he just wanted to be good friends and that we should keep hanging out.

God prepared me for this, I could feel His love radiating within me. It felt absolutely lovely and as long as I had this Mighty God, that is all I need.

I decided to get ready and picked a casual black long sleeve and a white scarf with a pair of jeans.

I looked out the window and the clouds were beginning to glaze over.

Joshua’s car parked in front of my house and I saw him. I actually saw him and man; he was such a handsome loving man.

He wore a stripped sweater and dark jeans and headphones under. He walked casually and rang my door bell and I quickly went to the door.

I took a deep breath and opened the door to find such an amazing man. I smiled and he also smiled.

We were off! We were heading to this fountain lake hidden behind buildings. I remember walking up this little hill and he had to help me. It was fun but scary haha.

As we began walking he talked about random things. How our day was and how it was going. It was nice casual talk until I decided to ruin it!

“Why haven’t you talked to me this past week…?” I looked at my feet as I asked him because I didn’t want him to see the pain in my eyes.

“Well, I have chosen.” Ouch, this was all coming so sudden! We sat down on a bench which faced the fountain and I stared at it.

I didn’t want to look at him. Because when I did, I knew I would break down.

“I choose you.” I looked at him then… and acting on impulse, tackled him into a hug! The tears fell and I hid them in his shoulder. I held on so tight to Joshua.

I felt like if I let go… he would disappear. So we sat there for minutes but they seemed like hours.

I stayed warm in his arms until suddenly I felt a drop of water on my face. And it wasn’t my tears… it began raining!

What perfect timing God.

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I was in shock the whole time. As we began walking back to the car, all I did was smile and stare at the ground. He continually kept on laughing and I laughed with him.

Hey, can’t blame a girl for being in shock! We got to his car and decided to head to College Hill Library for our picnic.

As we were walking back, the sky cleared up and the sun peaked from behind the clouds.

He showed me his whole entire school and we sat in this little courtyard on the grass and had our picnic. It was absolutely amazing just to be next to him and never did I think that this would be the turn out.

Here I was at the beginning of the day prepared for Joshua to say sorry and if we could still be friends… but for it to end up like this! I was in total shock the whole time.

I took pictures of him in order to remember this special day. This day where Joshua told me he actually liked me back.

I wanted to treasure it and I still do. We headed to our library then... where it all began.

We sat on our bench hidden beneath the trees and it was absolutely beautiful. We snapped a picture and he was handsome as ever.

Sadly, our time was almost up. We laughed, we smiled, I cried, and thanks to our Everlasting Father, I knew I was absolutely blessed.

When he dropped me off, he got out of the car and embraced me in a big tight hug.

I closed my eyes, took a deep breath, and smiled.

Thank you God.

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Hello my astounding readers! Just another chapter and YAY! THIRTEEN chapters and many more to come! And yes, you guessed right. The happy part is finally here!! After one too many sad chapters, this is the beginning of a new chapter <3

Thank you all for continually reading and God bless.

love, catalinasmiles