Forever and Always.

Chapter Four

It took months to heal. My only escape was the library.

Mamie Doud Eisenhower Library, it holds so many memories.

My only and favorite library, for it was the place I would always go to for thinking. I remember in sixth grade, I went to the library every weekday for the whole year just reading. It was nice, real nice.

Reading has been my companion and best friend for as long as I can remember; it was always a way of escape and losing myself in a book.

I began healing, losing myself in books and just beginning to feel the walls building again. My strength was building through the many pains I went through. Oh how I would regret this later on in life…

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I remember one Saturday in March of 2012; I was with my cousin, Lizzie, at the library. We were doing our usual thing, homework, music, talking, etc.

She was talking about her capstone. She had to do a project for the end of her senior year and she chose to write a script. She also had to film a movie for the script. Of course, I was surely intrigued. Seemed very fun!

She began working on it and the story line was about two people who were enemies from the beginning but it soon develops into a friendship.

She asked me to be her main character and I accepted. Acting, not very good at it, but I was decent at memorizing words.

Besides, I would do anything for her. Surely I was surprised when she asked me to be her main character! I am not a good actress at all; I could never get into character. It was early March, I believe.

 That was the official first time that I met and saw him.

Yes, yes. This was another boy that has yet to break my heart. And no, I was not going to go through that again. This boy was the other main character in her movie. He was supposedly my enemy.

His name was Joshua Keej Yang.

About 5’ 4”, as he claims. He had long dark brown hair and cute chinky brown eyes. He was wearing a green shirt and tan cargo shorts. The very athletic type, I could tell already.

Of course, we were very awkward when we met. It was so awkward that the crickets sang out in joy.

I mean, we had to film a movie with each other and make it look believable that we were suddenly enemies that become friends later on in the film.

His name in the movie was Dexter and I was Peyton. It was funny because in the movie we had to hate each other!

How could I hate a stranger? This whole acting thing was not working out very well for me.

We didn’t know each other very well so filming began a little bit oddly.  But as I continued to smile, he seemed to lighten up a bit. That was a plus! He had a very sweet smile; it seemed to reach his eyes.

First thing I could tell was that he was easy to read, kind of like an open book.

He seemed a bit lonely, kind of like he didn’t fit or something in his life was going wrong. But I didn’t want to bother him about it; I mean who would want to tell a stranger their problems? No one.

Then we began filming my favorite scene. We were on the balcony of the library and that’s when we ‘became’ enemies. I got to call this guy a toad! How much fun would that be..? VERY FUN! (;

“Ugh, you’re such a toad!” I said with a smile. And no, I was not supposed to be smiling during this scene…

“Who you calling a toad?!” Woah, he was in character!

I kept on laughing at him, why was I not acting serious?! I was supposed to be infuriated yet it was so hard with him. He started chuckling and we both burst out in fits of laughter.

I kind of had an instant connection with him; I was so comfortable with Joshua. But the thing that scared me was that I didn’t want to fall for someone again. And I wasn’t going to fall for him!

But we did have some chemistry…He was able to make me smile and laugh.

That’s exactly what I didn’t want. I wanted to be his friend, he was so kind!

I would have loved to be his friend and see where it went from there. That’s when I made a decision. I was determined to become Joshua’s friend, no matter what it took!

Acting with him was a bit challenging because I would constantly smile in the film. The only serious part I could get was probably my goodbye video because he wasn’t around to make me laugh!

Spoiler, I am sorry guys; I die at the end of the movie.

Of course I didn’t tell him that he was the reason that made me smile. I missed smiling and he brought it back. He was the light that shinned into my world of darkness.

 He guided me along and brought me to the light.

There was one particular line in the script that stood out to me,

“And that has to do with me how?” Dexter (Joshua) asked.

“You see, the chocolates and the flowers represent the sweet memories that ended up hurting you in the past. The apple represents a new start… just like our friendship.”

Someday this quote would relate to our lives, and the more I think about it now, it does.

After we got done filming, I missed his laugh. He had such a cute smile... I was going crazy. I just had to get to know him better.

“Uhm, it was nice filming today! And nice meeting you!” I was blushing like crazy.

I was planning on walking home because it was only a twenty minute walk but he offered to drive me.

I denied at first! I didn’t want to be sitting in a car with him, how awkward would that be! But he kept on insisting, and I finally accepted.

It was so awkward. The radio played quietly in the back and I gave him the directions to my house. I am pretty positive that I was eating an apple and was unable to buckle myself in so he had to do it for me, oh that was so embarrassing!

When we got to my house, it was the awkward wave. I still laugh about it today.

We talked that night. We talked about the movie and how fun it was filming it! We did the funny 20 questions and I could tell I was learning so much about him already.

We then got into an argument about mangos and what color they were on the inside. I diagnosed him with Don’t Know Mangos Disease (DKMD). Of course it wasn’t real. It was real funny though; I kind of liked to bicker with him!

Lizzie wrote us and realized then that we had forgotten one scene… that meant that I was able to see him again?! Oh I was a lucky girl….wait a second…

NO CATALINA, no liking anyone!

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Nyob Zoo my readers! (:

Sorry, I am getting lazy with my writing! I will continue improving, I promise. Again with more promises, sorry guys. Oh and I will link the movie that Joshua and I were in, my beautiful cousin did an awesome job with it!

There is a trailer and then the whole actual film. The trailer is a few minutes and the whole film is about nine minutes. I will link the trailer on this chapter and the whole film on the next chapter! You lovelies will have to wait. (:

Haha, but other than that, I pray that you all are doing very well and I hope you enjoyed this chapter. (:

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z_k24T07ymY

love, catalinasmiles