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    I walked through the door of my house, "mom I'm home" I said...no answer, "mom?"  I said again... tete and Carlos came running towards me, I hugged them and asked where mom was, but wait they had tears coming down their eyes, "mommy gone.." said tete , funny joke I said , since Carlos was in the 5th grade I asked where mom was, "mom left the house with a man and never came back.." I was as confused as my brothers where about my moms disappearing, " police came to search for us but me and tete  were scared so I told him to hide in the passageway daddy built" Carlos said , no wonder, at the hospital they didn't do any examines, supposedly I was "asleep"whenever they did it, or they just didn't want to tell me that my mom had left...it's whatever. "Okay let's get ready for bed." I said... I have no clue what to do I'm just a 16 year old.... I woke up the next morning thinking about what the hell my life was but of course it wasn't useful, I had to wake up and get my brothers ready-although I don't know where tete was suppose to go, since he got kicked out pre-k for bad behavior? *sigh* I guess I can stay home and watch my brothers. "ok are you guys hungry?"  I said, "yes, may we have some food please?" Said Carlos, we didn't have much left, but I tried my best, I made them a grilled cheese and they ate it up really quick, I'll have an apple I guess. Two weeks have past and of course no one came to check up on me, Tch I'm being greedy. I decided to maybe drop out because with our financial problems and being orphaned I didn't really have an option. I heard a slow knock, "who is it?" I sleepily said, "me" said some female voice, "Sorry I'm not interested in Girl Scout cookies, I can barely afford food" I said loud, "uhm no it's me Divine" She said, "o-OH SHIT SORRY" I bursted, I opened the door and by looking at Divines reaction I could tell she was feeling pity, "can I help you" I distracted her from the view of my house, "uhm well you haven't been to school and I'm worried" she said , "that's nice, welp now you know where I am" I said , "when are you coming back to school? Is your mom sick?" Divine asked, for some reason I got annoyed and rudely said, "listen I know your feeling pity for my family , but stop" I said, she looked at me confused, "uhm ok well where's your mom? My mom baked some pie for you guys" divine said, "my mom left , I'm left alone with my brothers" I said, "oh okay well when she comes back tell her I said hello" divine said, I chuckled and she asked what, "like that's going to happen, we"re orphaned" I said, she looked soft, like if I was a tiny baby. Fucking hate it. "Ok well if that's all I'll be shutting the door at your face, ok?" I said, she quickly pushed me and went inside, " ok well I'll leave, but not with your house looking like this" She said, rude , I love divine, but why am I like this, am I stressed, overwhelmed? "Why.."i said , "Why what?" She replied back while smiling , "Divine your perfect, you have a good boyfriend, your rich, your popular, and you want to help me?" I said, I'm pretty sure what I said was serious because she stopped smiling and looked dead at me and said " Why not? You think I don't live through something hard every day? You have to face your problems and go on with your day" she said, yeah well I can't face the fact my mom left and she was the least expected, was it me? Maybe the hospital bill was too expensive but why would she leave Tete and Carlos, "it's not fair, my life won't ever get easy, I always have problems, I always end up at the bottom" I said randomly , "life is never fair neither is the universe, but in order to survive you have to fight for your will and for your chance of survival, nothing is easy and never will be" She said, I felt something on my chest, It was beating really fast, I felt myself going hot and getting a weird feeling in my stomach...was this love?