Fateful Departure

Chapter 35

As he stared at the gray door in front of him, he began to shake lightly. He's still overly anxious what might happen next after he hears him out. He can only hope that it would turn out good. He took a three deep breaths and knocks at the door. But no one answered. He knocks again a few times, but nobody answered.

Sunoo contemplated wether to stay and call the older guy or go in and wait for him at the living room. But then, he decided the latter. He started to punch the code in and he hears the sound that means the code's correct. He goes inside in a tiptoe. It's like he's walking on an eggshells. He decided to go in silently, going to the living room.

When he arrived at the living room, the moment he tilts his head left. He saw a dark figure sitting at the couch. Which only startled him. The lights were not on. The feeling seems eerie. Sunoo started to feel uncomfortable. He has been expecting a lot of scenarios but he never really expected this one. It seems like things are getting out of his hand.

The older guy stared at the ground for like a minute. Not even bothering to look up at him. Sunoo tried to check up on him. "Hoonie, are you okay." Sunoo asking.

"It's Sunghoon for you." Sunghoon replied and went silent.

"Okay, Sunghoon." Sunoo retracted he said.

"Why did you knock? I even told you to punch the code." Sunghoon asked.

"I don't know. I'm kinda nervous, since this is our first mutual meeting after what happened." Sunoo replied honestly.

"Is that even your reason? Did you think that by knocking in my door, I would welcome you with open arms? Please don't kid yourself." Sunghoon said in mocking tone.

"No, I wouldn't dare to think like that. I thought you want to meet me here because you want to hear me out." Sunoo said while looking down. The older guy decided to stand up and face Sunoo. The younger guy's legs are starting to shake so he holds at the nearest wall to support himself.

"Hear you out? Am I your therapist or something. Hahahaha. Are you really serious?" Sunghoon started to laugh sarcastically.

"Then what do you want from me?" Sunoo asked.

The older guy decided to encircle Sunoo while looking at him intently. "What do I want from you? That is actually a good question. However, I already know what do you want from me." Sunghoon replied.

"If you already know then you must know that I want you to hear me out. If you want us to separate forever, and never cross paths together after hearing what I'm about to say then I'll give it to you." Sunoo said.

"No, that's not what you really want. What you really want is to let me hear your side then for you to be free of guilt. You never really want to apologize, or probably, you want to apologize but for the sake of saving yourself from the guilt towards what happened to me. You were never sincere at all." Sunghoon replied to him. The words he spewed towards the younger guy has laced with harshness and poison.

Sunoo's heart sink immediately. He didn't expect Sunghoon would assume that he's all doing it for himself. Yeah, it's true that he's partly doing it for himself. To be free from the traumas, and abuse he got before. But ultimately, he wants to share it, so that he won't have any regrets. So that Sunghoon would also think that he never meant it to happen.

"Are you serious Sunghoon? I waited for you everyday after school, followed, and even asked some people where you are just to have a chance to talk to you. Do you know what I went through? You blocked my number, you even avoided me every chance you can get. Now, you're calling me insincere? What do I need to do to prove that I'm sincere?" Sunoo asked slightly annoyed.