Lullabies of the Tranquil Sky

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I.

i thought my love was
gone. i thought the butterflies
were dead. i thought your
existence don't matter anymore.
i thought i finally forgot you.
but how come after our gazes
met again, everything i thought
that ended and reached epilogue
came back in an intensity that i
never thought—more genuine love,
faster butterflies, and an image of
yours that whittled in my mind by
a permanent ink. i thought it's
already done, without i being aware
that Cupid is rewriting our story with
a chapter that both of us never thought.

II.

you came in my life with a purpose.
you changed my perspectives and
principles in a better one. you made
me believe that a story like a sweet
fairytale with a happy ending exists
in this modern world. you made me
feel great butterflies of happiness.
i thought you're already the one i
prayed for—the one that i can be
with until my last breathe and
heartbeat. but now i realized that
you're just one of those people
who came to teach me a lessons.
to love me in a short time and to
make me feel happy temporarily,
but make me suffer permanently.

III.

in times of my downfall you came
and lift me higher as if i have a
floppy wings. in times of my failures
and wrecked catastrophes you gave
me the crown as if i'm the luckiest
winner. when i was drowned in the
ocean of darkness and despair you
sailed to bring me life jacket and to
save me. when i was doubting my
capabilities and was suffering of
my unending insecurities, you stayed
in my side to remind me that i'm
beautiful and worthy. but when you
experienced those challenges, i did
everything to help you—i offered my
hand wholeheartedly but you chose
to gave up and embrace death
instead of giving me a chance to
make you feel how much i love, care,
support and treasure you, my man.

—Skieslany