Worse from here

chapter 3- new place

The police take Kourtney to a mental hospital as a quick place to stay. They also took her there so she can heal from the trauma she endured her whole life as well as from today. As the officer is driving Kourtney there, Kourtney is in the back seat, she starts to realize that no one besides her mom was ever there for her. She begins to actually realize how much she's lost. She realizes that the one and only person she's ever cared for is gone. She feels empty inside and feels almost numb. She starts to think about all the memories she had with her mom, it was all playing in her head almost like a videotape. She remembers her moms laugh, her scent, and how bright of a soul she had. She starts to get a lump in her throat but she's not crying. "How am I not crying?" she asks herself.

Perhaps she's really that numb. She is sick of the trauma she deals with and is almost happy for her mom that she doesn't have to deal with this horrible world anymore. "What if I went downstairs before it happened? Would I have been able to save mom?" Kourtney thought. "Am I the reason she's dead?" Kourtney begins to think of any other possible solution that would have ended with her mom alive.  Kourtney tries to convince herself that its not her fault, but the more she thinks about it the more she realizes that she could have done something to prevent this all from happening.

She begins to think of her dad. "Did he do it on purpose? No, dad wouldn't do such a thing, right?" She asks herself. She starts to try and remember what specifically happened before she heard the glass break and her mom fall to the ground. She remembers hearing her mother scream. Her moms scream keeps replaying in her head and Kourtney's blood pressure starts to sky rocket. Just before she could start hyperventilating they arrive at the hospital.

Kourtney enters the hospital with the officer and the officer gets her checked in. "Here's your room and a warm blanket." The nurse says with a warm smile. Kourtney is too tired to let out a thank you, she takes the blanket slowly and walks into her room. She sets her blanket on the empty bed, the rest being taken by people, and lays down. She once again tries to really connect the dots and figure out what happened. Her blood pressure still really high, it starts to finally lower. "Dinner is ready" says the nurse, opening the door. The people in the beds begin to get up and walk over to the cafeteria. Kourtney being the last person out of the room.

Kourtney walks into the somewhat loud cafeteria and gets her food. She's not sure why she even got food, considering she has no appetite and cant get her mind off of her day.  Kourtney takes a seat at a table by herself. She looks at her food and begins to remember her moms cooking. She tries to recall the smell of all the foods that her and her mom enjoyed making and eating together. It seems that everything she does reminds her of her mom.  She remembers her moms brown hair, brown eyes, and average figure. Just like her own. Kourtney resembles her mom greatly.

Kourtney begins to pick up her spoon and pick at her plate. The food doesn't smell bad, its better than her school food, but it doesn't smell great either. She takes a bite of the food and starts to chew. She has a pounding headache because of everything that's going on, so she doesn't really focus on the taste of it. She swallows her food and starts to fidget with the rest of the food on her plate. She starts to wonder where her dad is and how he feels about the situation. "Why do I care about how he feels? He has no remorse, I shouldn't be caring about someone so evil like him right now." She thinks to herself, taking another bite of her food.

She begins to hear footsteps walking towards her, She looks over and sees 3 people around her age walking towards her. She remembers them from the room they were just in, they were the people laying on the beds. She swallows her food and starts to prepare for the worse. "Can we sit here?" one of the 3 ask. Kourtney looks up at her to see a girl with long, blonde hair, blue eyes, and fair skin. She was wearing shorts and a t shirt, while the other two boys behind her were wearing sweats and graphic hoodies. The girl stands there, waiting for a response. Before Kourtney can think about what they just said, "Sure" comes out of her mouth. They all begin to take a seat next to Kourtney.

"I'm Ayleen, this is Nathaniel" She says pointing to one of the boys. He had black, medium length hair and was rather average height with brown eyes. Nathaniel waves hello politely. Kourtney also waves back. "And this is James" Ayleen continues. Kourtney looks over at James, he has dirty blonde hair, around the same height as Nathaniel, and hazel eyes. Once again they both wave hello to each other.  "When did you come here?" Ayleen asks. "Like 30 minutes ago." Kourtney replies. Before Ayleen can say another word, Another person walks up to them. This time it looked to be a staff or police of some sort. "We need to ask you a couple questions if that's okay with you." says the man. Kourtney gets up and follows the man to an almost empty room with a table and chair.