What I Need || LaMelo Ball

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lemme catch y'all up, last time we just finished fucking in lithuania.

i'm back in chino and so is gelo and melo. there no longer playing in lithuania bc lavar thought they deserved better and honestly they did.

denise gave birth about 3 weeks ago to a baby girl: zoey christina ball. she's adorable and i haven't really left their place bc she's so cute

as for me and melo, we didn't really talk about what happened. it's been 4 weeks and we've been kind of off ever since it happened

pretty much things went back to normal, but not for me, how could he just move on like it was nothing?

i got in my head over it, was i just a quick fuck? did it actually mean anything more to him? does he regret it?

i felt awful, but i didn't want to ask or talk ab it bc i would be pushing it and it already did enough damage to our friendship.

yeah friendship. nothing more

anyways it's gelos 19th birthday party in a few hours and right now we're finishing off any last minute tasks.

"thanks for helping out ky" gelo said with his arm around me while we looked at the decorated venue

"anytime, but has melo talked to you recently?" i asked

"uhhh like how bc we be talking everyday, we live together" he laughed

"i mean about me and him, or anything along those lines" i chewed the inside of my cheek

"uhhh not that i recall... why are y'all good?" he asked me sitting in a chair and me taking one next to him

"i don't know, remember my last night in lithuania?"

"oh yeah and y'all had that weird lil fight and you went back to the room and i don't wanna know what happened next" he stated fixing his chain

"yeah, we'll we ended up doing a few things, you know?" i played with my fingers

"like i said: i don't wanna know what happened next" he playfully covered his ears

"but are y'all together or what?"

"no, after it happened i came back and we never spoke of it again and he just like moved on. when y'all came back all the name calling and touching stopped and it went back to how it was before y'all left chino. and now i'm sitting here wonder wtf happened and i have so many questions but i can't talk to him about it!" i unintentionally ranted looking at the floor the whole time

"what a dick, i'm sure he's just trying to figure out what next as well" he rubbed my back watching me hold back tears

"do you regret it?" gelo asked seriously.

kissing and touching never really meant much to me unless you were someone special.

but sex i took differently. i didn't fuck anyone who took me on nice dates or started getting freaky

i only ever had sex with two guys: melo and gelo

HAHAHAHAH NO IM JUST PLAYING

fr only two people, my ex who moved to canada and melo.

i never wanted to have sex with someone i wasn't in a relationship with, no one night stands or sneaky links, nothing like that. that was something i respected for myself

and so for me to have sex with melo and him just carry on like nothing happens cut deep. real fucking deep.

gelo knew all this as well, he knew sex meant more to me so he probably had some idea on how i was feeling