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i couldn't do it, holding them pills in my hand felt wrong
even thinking ab it felt wrong, how was i even considering taking my life and putting my loved ones thru the pain of loosing me
i threw them into the sink and started smashing them along with any other pills i had in the house before running the water watching it bubble before disappearing down the drain
i looked at the box cutter that was still
on the bench from when opened a few packages
the blood flowed into the sink as my tears blurred my vision
what was i doing to my self? i had lost it completely.
i needed melo, i needed my best friend to tell me he's not worth it and to stop me from hurting myself, i needed my best friend to tell me it will all be ok, but i didn't.
i looked at my wrists and thought about what diego, gelo, zo, ant, dmo, larray, lena, eli and even melo would say, what would they think?
i collapsed to the floor screaming from the heartache.
the betrayal.
the lies.
the chains.
the fight.
everything.
what did she have that i didn't? was it her body? her face? her age? what else more could she have possibly have done for him to still be with her? was i just not good enough?
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What I Need || LaMelo Ball
Fanfiction"do you guys see yourselves marrying and having a family together in the future?" asked overtime larry me and melo looked at eachother before smilling and looking back at larry "yeah" we said in unison -- "ky'rah do you still have any love for LaMel...
