N woke up to the sound of his band members calling his name. He felt a hand on his forehead but it quickly disappeared. With a groan he opened his eyes and all eyes were on him.
"HYUNG YOUR AWAKE!" Hyuk shouted as he squeezed N in a tight hug.
"c-cant breathe Hyuk...!" N stuttered, Hyuk let go and N breathed a sigh of relief, he then looked to the others and saw Ravi in the back, he gave him a look with an expression that N couldnt recognise, but it was soon gone and Ravi looked away from N's confused eyes.
"So guys... What's going on?" N asked
"Well we were hoping that you could tell us, you came home and collapsed" Leo said with a concerned look. N thought for a minute, then it all came rushing back, Ravi and the girl, running back to the dorm and then collapsing.
"umm... I guess I was just really tired..." N muttered, Leo gave him a look asking 'really?' but N just smiled sheepishly.
After vixx's manager told N to get some rest the others left the room, apart from Leo.
"So what really happened?" He asked once he was sure no one was listening
"W-what do you mean?" N replied
"You definitely didn't collapse from exhaustion, you were okay when you left the house, so come on what happened?"
N sighed "I saw them..."
"Saw who?" Leo asked in confusion
"Ravi and... His... g-girlfriend" N found it hard just mentioning the word 'girlfriend'
Leo sighed and looked at his friend with sympathy. He couldn't say much as he's never felt loving someone who is already taken, but he does know what its like to love and be loved. Its the best feeling in the world, so when your not being loved back it must be devastating.
"You know there really is only one thing you can do" Leo said "you've got to talk to him, just remember your the leader of vixx so really it is your duty to keep vixx's image in mind, asking him won't be so bad"
N thought about it, yes he was vixx's leader, yes he needed to think about the band before he thought about his own feelings, and yes asking him won't be so bad right? He can use his role as the leader to his advantage and find out who his crush and fellow band mate is dating. It might be heartbreaking to think about but if Ravi really is happy then maybe N can try to move on... Or maybe he could try to get Ravi to see how much he's missing out on...
"Thanks Leo" N said with a smile "I'm gonna find out all the details on this girl, if he's happy then okay that's fine, but boy is he gonna realize all that he's missing" and with a wink he stood up and left the room.
"Ravi Raviiiii" N shouted as he walked to the living room, he saw Ken, Hongbin and Hyuk playing a video game but no Ravi in sight
"Guys where's Ravi?" N asked
"In his room" Ken said with his eyes glued to the TV screen "after we all left your room he went straight to his and AISH NOOOOO IM DYING IM DYING AAAAAND... I'm dead" N laughed at Ken's dramatic scene as he lost the game and went off to Ravi's room.
N took a deep breath and knocked on the door. He heard a muffled "come in" so he opened the door and walked in to see Ravi on his laptop with headphones on.
When Ravi heard the door open he took his headphones off and put his laptop to the side, his face held an unrecognizable expression once he saw N walk into the room.
"Oh hey N hyung, how are you feeling?" Ravi asked, N smiled and replied with a simple "good"
N sat next to Ravi on his bed and his nervous eyes met Ravi's eyes. He took a deep breath before saying
"Ok Ravi, be completely honest with me, do you have a girlfriend?"
Ravi's eyes went slightly wide "w-why are you suddenly asking me that?" He asked with a stutter
"Because I need to know" N said firmly, although inside he felt as if he was dying, this wasn't the reaction he wanted
"So is it true? And you can't lie to me, I saw you with someone, a g-girl... And you both looked quite close" N tried to keep a straight face, but hey it's hard asking your crush whether or not they're dating someone.
"Ok hyung, I'll be honest, I do have a girlfriend... your not angry with me are you?" Ravi looked at him as if he was sorry and N melted on the spot, why must Ravi have to act so freaking cute! No matter how sad he feels that Ravi actually has a girlfriend, N will forever love Ravi's cuteness.
"Why would I be angry about that? Although I'm annoyed that you didn't tell me... and Ravi I just want you to know that the image of our group is very important, as much as I want you to be happy, you need to keep the rest of vixx in mind" N took a deep breath once he finished talking, Ravi looked at him for a moment and N swore that he saw an emotion close to devastation, but that quickly disappeared as Ravi smiled at N.
"I'm sorry I didn't tell you, but I'm really trying to make sure nothing happens to vixx, I promise this won't get in the way of my work" he hugged N, which took him by surprise, and N hestitantly hugged him back.
N was heartbroken, almost completely sure that Ravi had no feelings for him whatsoever.
However what he didn't know was that Ravi only had a girlfriend to try and stop the feelings he held for N, and with the way N acted he was positive that N didn't see him in that way.
Leo and Ken were positive that they could get N and Ravi to realize how much they love each other before something terrible happens.
Hyuk and Hongbin are just clueless at the moment... Will this mess ever get sorted...?
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HEEEEEEEY IM BACK missed me?
I'm soooooo sorry I've been away, but I had my last exam yesterday so I'm FREEEEE XD Im not sure on how to feel about this update.... But yeah give me some feedback and I'd love to hear everyone's ideas on what should happen next in the story.
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