Heaven in Hiding (Negan)

Chapter 55

I was out there looking for Negan for a long time. I was me and Saddiq. We were out here for a few hours but nothing.
"I'm telling everyone he probably went back to the sanctuary." I told him annoyed.
"We aren't allowed to go that far." He told me. I growled.
"Then we aren't going to fucking find him. I'm going back. This is pointless. We need a car. Not to be on foot." I said Turing back toward Alexandra. Saddiq sighed and followed since he knew we had to be out here in teams.
"They aren't going to let us use a car. Or a horse." He told me.
"So I don't ask." I told him as I walked faster. The rest of the walk was quiet. He knew me well enough to just leave me alone. We got to the gates and they let us in. Before I could explain why we were back I saw him. Negan. Being handcuffed and getting ready to be walked back to his cell. I clenched my fists and stormed toward him. He must have heard me because he turned to look as did everyone else. I raised my hand and smacked him right across the face gaining a few gasps from those around me.
"How the fuck could you do that?!" I shouted at him. I saw him adjust his jaw as he looked back at me.
"Doll,"
"No. You shut your fucking mouth Negan. Shut up!" I yelled at him with tears of rage in my eyes. He sighed and looked at me knowing damn well everyone else's was watching this. "Why the shit would you just leave like that?! Leave Jenny. Leave me? Here. Alone. Without you?! Why? Because you didn't want to be kept in there? You thought I wasn't happy? I was you know. Just knowing you were here. And you leave?! Ruined everything. The trust you've started to slowly build with the community here. It's fucking gone now!"
"Prudence listen." He spoke.
"No! You listen! What you did. It was stupid and selfish! Fuck you!" I shouted before storming away. I could not believe him. After last night. How amazing it was. Was that supposed to be a goodbye?! Why wouldn't he ask us to go with him. I would have in a heartbeat. I stormed back to my house.

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Gabriel started walking Negan back toward his cell. If he had any doubts Prudence was in on it they were gone now. He glanced that the bright red mark on Negans cheek. A small drop of blood at the counter of his mouth. She didn't hold back. She really had no idea he had left.
"As if it wasnt fucking obvious. She had nothin to do with me leaving." Negan spoke.
"I know."
"You left without locking me up." Negan told him. "You know. I didn't plan on coming back but those four walls. They are much better then what's out there."
"And Prudence?" Gabe asked. Negan chuckled.
"Yeah. She's a firecracker ain't she? And she hits harder then most men I know. I deserved every part that slap. She just has to cool down."
"You really left her. After telling me all this time she's your reason for staying alive. Just. To leave her and your daughter." Negan sighed.
"You know Padre. Honestly. I think part of me felt like I wanted to die out there. But I was too chicken shit to let it happen."
They got the the cell and Negan walked in and went right to his bed. Gabriel made to sure lock him up before leaving. Negan let out a long sigh as he put his hand to his stinging cheek. She really did not hold back.

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When Michonne got back there was an emergency meeting about Negans escape that I was invited to. Everyone's eyes were on me as I stood there.
"I didn't let him out if that's what you're all giving that fucking look for." I said crossing my arms.
"How can we know for sure?" Aaron asked me.
"Why the hell would I not go with him if I let him out? I would have left with Jenny and that would have been that. I was fucking left here. And let me tell you I got my pay back." I said as I leaned against the wall.
"Yeah. I'm sure that slap was heard across the Alexandra." Saddiq said as he looked at me.
"It wasn't Prudence." Gabriel spoke up. "I was distracted and left the door unlocked. She had nothing to do with it." I gave him a smile as I looked toward Michonne. She was pissed. Understandably. Eventually she decided to go down to talk to him.
"Do you want to come down too?" She asked me. I shook my head.
"I don't want to fucking look at him right now." I told her as I walked out of the church with her. She seemed surprised. Probably because normally I would have jumped at the offer but I was still hurt by the fact he left us. "I'm just going to take a walk around to cool off before getting Jenny." She nodded and we went our separate directions for the time being.

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After Michonne went to check on RJ and Judith for a bit she walked down to see Negan in his cell holding a book. She saw the welt on his cheek from Prudence as he looked up at her.
"Welcome back." He said with a smirk.
"Why did you come back?" She asked him.
"You know. I was in your home. I could have bashed your head in. A whole lot of heads. But I didn't. I came back."
"You know what I think. I think you got out. Selfishly left your family here. Realized there wasn't shit out there for you. The world chewed you up and spit you back out. Then you came crawling back here." Michonne said crossing her arms.
"The world has changed. Thing is. I've changed too."
"What do you want here?"
"If you aren't gonna kill me. Maybe you can trust me a little bit."
"Wow. You choose self preservation and you think that earns you my trust?" She asked him with an amused chuckle. "If spouting fresh bullshit and ditching the only people who care about you counts as change then congratulations Negan. You are a new man."
"You keep me here to remind people how great Rick was. How merciful he was. I'm telling you. I can be more. I can help. You have a good thing going here and it's slipping. You're losing control of this."
"Where are you getting this information from?" She asked. Negan looked at his window.
"That little window to the outside world. I'm not dead. I hear things. The meeting room is a stones through from here."
"You're wrong."
"Look. All I'm saying is I know a thing or two on how to keep people in line. I can be of help. Leader to. Former leader."
"I don't want shit from you Negan. We are tying you up. Fixing these locks and closing that window."
Negan watched as she left.
"Well shit." He cursed.

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"Mama. Can we go see daddy?" Jenny asked me as she ran to me from Noras.
"Not today sweetheart. Let's go home."
"Awe. Okay. Can we play monopoly when we get home then!?" She asked as she skipped next to me.
"You know. I think we can do that." I told her with a smile.
We got home and started to play when there was a knock at the door. I got up and opened it.
"Gracie. What's the matter?" I asked her.
"Nothing. I wanted to know if Jenny can come over to play." She asked. Jenny ran up to the door and looked up at me.
"Can I mama?!"
"I don't know sweetheart." Jenny gave me the saddest look in the world and I sighed. "Okay. But you come back when the sun starts to set."
"YAY!" She slipped her shoes on and off she went. I watched them jog down the street and into Aaron's house. I smiled and closed the door. I walked up to my room and sat on the edge of the bed. I looked over to the empty side of the bed. The side Negan was laying on not even 24 hours ago. I laid down and reached my hand across to the messy side. His scent still lingering on the pillow. I grabbed it and pulled it into my body. I felt the tears welling up before I started sobbing. That jackass. How could he do such a stupid thing and I'm still here missing him. Loving him. Part of me didn't want to forgive him but the other part of me knew he had to have had a reason. A reason he did what he did. I just wanted to be back in his arms so bad.