Heaven in Hiding (Negan)

Chapter 40

Over the next few days all Negan and I did was talk. More like I talked and he listened. I told him about my whole life really. My pregnancy. Family struggles. Relationships. Everything.
"Ya know." He spoke, looking over at me from his bed. "I always thought you had a kid. I mean I ain't stupid, I saw the stretch marks on your stomach."
"Why didn't you ever-"
"Bring it up? What reason would I have had to?" He chuckled. "You think they make you any less hot and badass?"  I shrugged. "While we're here confessing. I got some shit to let go. Since I'm gonna he stashed away for life."
"Yeah? From before all this?" I asked.
"Yeah. Lucille. My actual wife. Before this. We. We tried to have kids through out our relationship. Just. Never happened. No matter how hard we tried. It put a huge strain on us and... I started cheating on her. I thought I was bein sly. Saying oh I had to stay late at work. Shit like that. But she was a smart woman and she knew." He fiddled with his fingers a bit. "She got cancer. Cancer. That was the shit to wake me up. After that I stayed true to her. Went to all her doctor appointments. Chemo. Shit like that. That's when it happened. She turned and I didn't have the fucking strength to kill her. I just fucking ran." He gripped the bed sheets. "After everything with her. I swore I wouldn't let myself get close to someone again. Then fucking years later you come barging into my life. Literally. Sneaking into my fucking place and taking out my men." He smirked. "The second I laid eyes on you Doll it was like everything made sense. The world went to shit just so we could meet." My eyes started to tear up as he spoke. I never heard him talk like this before. He cupped my chin and turned me to face him. "Prudence. I love you. I loved you the god damn second I looked into your eyes. My stubborn ass just didn't want to."
"And here we are." I sniffled. "And you're about to be locked away forever." His thumb wiping a tear away. "But we can leave. Get out and start another place. Or even just us together." Negan gave me a sad smile and shook his head.
"You know we can't do that Doll. There's been too much death and suffering. This is the way it's gotta be. At least for now." Before I could answer the doctor walked in.
"Alright. Let's take those stitches out."
"Please do. They are itchy as fuck." Negan laughed. I could tell he was starting to win the doctor over with his personality.
"You know. Once these come out. Ricks sending you away."
"Yeah. So if you could take these bad boys out and give Prue and me some Alone time for a while. It'd be much appreciated." Negan said with a wink.
"You know I really shouldn't." He said as he wheeled over with the tools he needed.
"Shouldn't what?" We heard Ricks voice from the door way.
"Don't worry about it Rick. You're gonna have your fucking fun putting me away soon. Doc here's takin out the stitches now." Negan said shifting his glance to Rick. The two held eye contact for a while before the doctor started taking the stitches out. The clink of the staples hitting the glass plate near the bed seemed to echo loudly as the doctor took them out one by one. Then the stitches came out. All that was left was a large red and scaring mark on his neck.
"You're saying he's good to go now. Healthy enough to be put away?" Rick asked.
"Well, yes normally I'd suggest another few days bed rest-"
"That's what he is going to get." Rick said as he motioned for people to come into the room. I gripped onto Negans arm as I watched Michonne and a few more people walk in.
"What. No. Already?" I asked panicked as the grabbed Negan, pulling him out of the bed, my grip on him tightening. "Please. Please. Just. Just give me a little." I cried, holding back my tears as I was ripped away from him by someone.
"You had your time." Rick said coldly as he grasped Negans arm and put it behind his back.
"Prue. It's fine. I'll be okay." He said looking at me, Rick granting us this moment.
"What about me?" I asked as I felt the tears start to fall down my face. "What about me Negan?! I'm going to be alone. I'm not going to have anyone or anything. Jens gone. The baby is gone. You're going to be gone." I sobbed. I felt the grip on me loosen and I flung myself at Negan. My arms wrapping around his neck as I held onto him. "I'm going to be alone." I cried into his chest. I felt him take in a big breath of air then Release it.
"Darlin' you have a community to run. Stand tall and proud. You don't need me by your side. Fuck. I needed you more then you ever needed me. You fucking got this shit. Don't even second guess that." Negan spoke as I looked up at him. Our lips connected for one last passionate kiss before I was yanked away.
"Enough." Rick spoke before pushing Negan out of the room.
"I love you Prudence." I heard Negans vanishing voice say.
"I love you too!" I shouted back through thick tears.
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I sat in the truck as Tara drove me back to the Sanctuary. The truck bed was full of glass to repair our windows along with a few other supplies. A few cars followed behind to help us rebuild.
When we pulled up I saw the wives walking around in normal clothes, putting out some potted plants. I smiled. At least they got some type of happiness.
"Thanks." I finally spoke as I looked to Tara. "I know it's not easy to work with us. More so me. But I appreciate this and so do my people." She just have me a nod and got out. I took in a deep breath as I followed.
"Prudence." Regina said as she walked up to me. "Everything okay? What's going to happen. To this place?"
"We're going to go on as if this never happened. I'm running the Sanctuary,to Ricks liking, but I'm still the one in charge. Not too much is going to change." I told her. Frankie walked up to us.
"How you holding up? We heard about what they did to Negan." I took in a deep breath.
"I'll be just fine, thanks. You're really wussing up the place." I said motioning toward the flowers. She smiled.
"Yeah. I feel we needed it." I rolled my eyes.
"Fine. They can stay. Arat!" I shouted and she came around the corner. She gave be a smile and walked toward me.
"Hey there! Glad to see you didn't get locked away too." She joked.
"I missed you too." I said sarcastically. "Can you gather everyone and then meet me on the catwalk." She nodded and walked away.

I leaned against the cold metal bars of the catwalk,looking down at what was left of our people. I'd say probably about half of us were left but there were still a good amount of us.
"Listen up!" I shouted and everyone's heads snapped toward me and they automatically when to their knees. I couldn't help but smirk. No wonder Negan loved this shit. "Everyone up. No more kneeling. I am the new Leader here and you will respect me as such! I won't take you're bullshit and you should know that by now. We keep our small groups under us and we still will get our stuff. Along with that there will be no more working for points to earn basic necessities. Points will be used for luxury items." I spoke out. The people nodding in agreement, seeming to like my ideas. "Negan may be gone but we are all Negan and we always will be. Just with a woman's touch." I smirked. "We're done here!" The people clapped and walked away.
"Good first speech Boss." Arat said as she nudged me playfully.
"Thanks. No wonder Negan was a narcissistic ass. This power feels pretty damn good." I laughed.