The Bad Boy [Carter Reynolds]

The bad boy (33)

Kayla's pov:

I can't believed I screwed up so bad. I feel so guilty. My heart wont stop aching. Nor have I spoke or texted to any of my friends in weeks. This is all my fault. I cant believe I did that. I hurt Maggie, Carter and Matt. I dont blame them for hating me.

Why are you such a joke kayla.

I have tried to contact them. But all of them have ignored my calls. I dont really blame them. All I feel now is loneliness. And its hell.

Im a mess right now. Inside out.

The only thing I can think of is my bestfriend matthew. Memories of that night, haunts me. How he suddenly turned. It was like he was becoming another person when he saw us. And it was really scaring to see him like that.

The thought off that night haunts me today. The worst day of my life.

I hope he's okay. I miss him so much. Ugh I miss them all. But my mind couldn't take away Matthew and how it's going, is he alright? Does he still hate me?

Listening to sad songs, while drowning in my thoughts, only to stare out the raining weather outside the window.

I look down at my phone and stare at all the non missed calls that I have got. Nope nobody called me back.

I dial his number trying to see if he's gonna pick up this time. I stare at my phone with hope.

But no, nothing.

I sigh as I leans my head on my shoulder.

suddenly I feel really sad. What if he never wants to talk to me again? What if he has forgotten about me?

Oh no..

"I cant do this anymore" I say to myself, and take my phone and run runs out the door.

I need to see him. Make sure he's okay. I cant bare this anymore. If he isn't going to answer my phone call, i'll have to see him for myself and make sure he's okay. And that he hasn't moved on. I can't bare to loose my friends. Especially not my bestfriend Matt. I'll have to meet Maggie too, but that will have to wait. I just can't stop thinking about Matt and it's killing me.

Ringing on his doorbell for the third time now i finally see a shadow through the window.

Taking a deep breath, I step slowly back.

Why do i feel so nervous?

Omg.

My heart was beating rapidly fast, and my mouth suddenly dries up.

He comes out, looking better than ever. Not what I expected.

Suddenly the world stops. And I cant seem to stop staring into his eyes. His light brown eyes took my breath away, and I suddenly feel so weak. Memories of us flashes through my mind, and i almost tear up seeing him. I want to run up to him and hug him so badly. I've missed him so much.

He stands there staring, waiting. He looks so cold, so lonely.

"I-i.."

I try to say something but I fail. Im lost in his gaze.

His expression goes first from shocked, then sad, then angry. I could actually see a hint off smile behind his face but then it quickly fades and his angry cold, new Matt expression takes over.

"E-e-h" I stammered, and tried to look everywhere except his eyes.

No. Kayla. No! Pull yourself together.

I swallowed and balled my sit together to get some strength.

Then my eyes looked straight into his as my mouth open to say something.

"Hi!"

He rolls his eyes and shut the door harsly in front of me. Making a big Slam noise.

What?

I go up to the doorbell and ring it again, without stepping back. I ring and ring and ring until he finally comes back opening the door.

"What?!" He shouts, almost spitting at me.

Im standing less than a meter in front of him and I could seriously feel his breath on me.

I don't know if I like this new Matthew. He's so cold, dark and distance. It's like he turned of his humanity. It's like his there but not there. He looks like the same as before but slightly matured. I can't quite out my finger on it.

"Im sorry!" I shout, panicking. And I got a little voice crack my my tone.

Waiting for a respond, I still stand there scared, staring down at our foots.

"You're sorry? That's it?" He laughs dryly. Never have ive seen him like this. So cold. So mean. It was kind of frightening.

"Im sorry, I kissed him.." I mumle shyly and embarrassed. I didn't know what else to say. Are we supposed to say your sorry to your boy bestfriend for kissing his bestfriend? It kinda doesn't makes seance.

"Still not good enough" he growls.

I didnt know what to say next. The one I should be really apoligizing to is Mason. Not matthew. I dont get it. Why is he so angry?!

"What?!" What do you mean 'still not good enough' what do you want me to say Matt?!" I shout frustrated. Im sick of seeing him like this. I want the old Matt back. I want my bestfriend back.

He stand there for a while, staringg at me without saying anything. He just stares and i feel myself getting really really uncomfortable.

"I miss you matt" I continued trying not to make this awkward or ruin everything. But it doesn't work when I feel my face getting hot and probably red.I dont know why im feeling like this. Maybe I just miss him so much that my heart is punching inside of me.

"You kissed him.." He mumbled.

"You kissed my bestfriend" he says slowly, his voice husky and sad.

I can feel myself tearing up.

I don't know why.

"I know, and im so sorry. I dont know why I did that. But you dont need to get so angry about it. It was just a kiss!"

"Get so angry about it?!" He screams. "Of course I would get angry. Dont you know how much it hurts to see my two bestfriend kissing. Do you know how much it hurts to see my bestfriend kissing the one I love in the whole world?! Do you know how that feels?!"
He burst out, screaming..

Oh

I stand there. Breathtaken.

"What?"

"It feels like shit" he says after a while, when I didn't say anything and looks into my eyes. He looks slightly embarrassed and shy.

"I-i didnt know you felt like that about me" i say, still shocked. My mind was blowing up. I didn't know what to say, or what to think.

"I have always felt liks that about you" he whispers, still staring down. I could notice that he was getting pretty uncomfortable saying this, but that was only a good sign. Because then there was a chance that my fear friend was still in there.

I flushes so hard, my cheeks were going to explode from embarrassment. I don't know what it was. But my heart would literally not stop pounding. Never have I felt like this before. Yes I dated a lot of guys, but never actually had a feeling like this before. There was just something about him right now. Something about this moment that made my legs shiver. Something about his stare. His gaze was still cold but it was locked in mine and I couldn't take my eyes away.

"I love you, Kayla"