Friends. I hate that word. Carter haven't spoken to me since he left me confused at my home. Okay, it's only been one day but I really miss that he would talk to me, but I'm still annoyed and angry at him at he same time.
In the first period of class we both ignored each other, but it's hard cause we sit right beside each other and I almost caught him staring at me but he dosen't say anything, neither do I.
"Next thing you're acting like lovey doveys, and now you're avoiding each other" Kayla starts again. We sat at a bench outside the school eating lunch.
Yes! I litterally forced her to sit outside with me instead of in the cafeteria where we usually sit with Matt and Carter. But, I really need a girl to girl talk with her right now, without Matt or Carter.
I want to talk to Matt too, but I'll save it for later maybe..and I'm a bit afraid that he's gonna tell something to Carter, since they have gotten really close.
"Yea..we fought again" I mumble, staring at my lunch.
"Again seriously?" Kayla says dramatic, like she just heard the biggest rumor ever. She really have to overreact about everything. Avoiding it, I exhale and continues.
"Yeah.." I still avoid eye contact. "He is so confusing, I don't know what he wants" I sigh.
"What is it this time then?"
"He got angry when I said we were just friends" I say as I finally look her in the eye and see the sympathy she gives me by only looking at her eyes.
It's weird to finally talk about a boy that I'm having issues with, it's like my first ever relationship talk, but we all know, that it's not going to work and it's not gonna happen anyways, but here we are still talking about it.
"And?" She imdiently asks begging for more.
As if it were more of the story.
"That's it" I sigh.
When I look back at her, she smirks widely and it only makes me widen my eyes in surprise.
"Why are you smiling?" I asks a little bit frightened and scared of what's she's thinking about.
"He is so into you! I knew it" she shout, jumping up and down in excitment. Giggling and making the weirdest excited noises ever.
"Shut up! It's people around! And I'm not sure yet! I actually really dont think he likes me that much" i shrug.
"And you know, I like Cameron" I added, and looked around so nobody could hear us.
"Ugh get over Cameron already!" She whines loudly. People sitting at benches not so far from us started to stare at us.
"Oh my god, don't shout. And it's not that easy" I say.
"How many times am I gonna say to you! You don't like Cameron, and it's not going to happen. Even I like Cameron. Yeah, he is hot, and the most atractive guy in this school, but I promise you, he will not make you happy like Carter does. I have seen the way he looks at you, And GURL!! I need to tell you this boy is drooling over you" She said and it made me smile in relief as my heart lift up.
"Wow" I give her a shocked look as I smile.
"Yea" she giggles.
"That's the smartest thing I've ever heard you say" I said as she nod proudly in agreement.
"So..you think Carter and I can be something?"
"Defiantly. Go talk to him, he probably already waits for you to go say sorry to him and purpose" she says in the most day dreamingly voice ever.
"Kayla"
"Hm??"
"That's not gonna happen" I say with a poker face.
"Okay okay, but just go talk to him" she pushes me off the bench so I'm standing off straight.
"R-right now?" I stuttered nervously.
"Yes! Right now, silly! Goo!!" She laugh as she pushes me and I almost fall at her hard push.
"Okay, okay" I giggled excited and nervously, making my way in the building again.
"Any by the way you look stunning today, so don't be shy" she shouted and it made me smile widely.
"Thanks!" I shout back.
I am thankful for myself today, for putting effort in doing my makeup nicely and I wore a pretty top and skinny jeans with some black high heel. I never wear heels to school but today I just felt for it.
I really love having Matt and Kayla as best friends, Kayla really knows how to push me to do things, and now I'm ready as ever to confront Carter and tell him I like him.
Do I really like him tough? The question in my head keep saying to me over and over again.
But I just push it away. I'm not backing off now.
The thought make me nervous that I'm actually doing this.. I don't know what's going to happen now, as I walk closer and closer to him, in the hallway.
He's probably sitting with Matt at the lunch table right now.
I get a bubbly nervous feeling, as I continued walking, closer and closer. I can't believe I am doing this.
My smile fadens and the excitment and joy, I had left in my body vanish when I see Carter sitting with another girl.
Laughing, giggling, flirting. Yep, that was us for not so long ago, until he replaced me with Tiffany.
The one I hate the most.
Tiffany Cooper.