The Bad Boy [Carter Reynolds]

The bad boy (30)

Songs, I recommend listening to while reading the chapter:

So cold- Ben clocks
Never say never -The fray

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Entering home, my dad's shoes was the first thing I saw, when I opened the door. I didn't have the power to cry anymore or scream or yell at them for lying to me. All this time, tell me the truth, feeling like they didn't care about me at all. Instead, I just walked in to the kitchen, ignoring the disgusting noises on the floor above me, that were echoing around the whole house. It's been hell of a night, and coming home to this, is nearly breaking me down. But I'm trying my best to not think about it, I'm trying my best to feel as numb as possible. I'm sick of feeling sad all the time. I'm sick of feeling guilty to people that have done nothing to me.

Grabbing an apple I run upstairs, straight to my room and close the door after me. When I'm in my room, I can barely hear the noises from outside, which right now I'm really thankful for.

I change quickly into some comfy clothes, sweatpants and a white shirt while, I throw my dirty white dress away.

Throwing all kinds of sweaters and pants around my room I took some clothes into my bag. My room was getting messier and messier. I just wanted to get all of this out from the room.

"Maggie, where are you going?" My mother rushed voice, shouts as she enters my room in only an white bathing cape. She have a tight expression on her face as her arms are crossed.

"Have you been crying?" She asks shocked, when I face her. Quickly, I swipe away the tears, with my bare hands.

Zipping the bag with all my beloved clothes, toothbrush and the things I need, I walk right past her ignoring her stubbornly gaze, waiting for me to answer her annoying questions.

"Don't ignore me Maggie! Where the hell are you going?!" She screams, because I didn't answer her in the first place.

"To Grandma, you got a problem with that?" I yell back.

"How long are you going be there?" She crossed her arms, giving me an evil gaze.

"For a while" I sigh, stepping in my shoes, as I put on my jacket.

"But you have to come back, right?" She looks almost afraid of loosing me. But I know, she isn't. I know she doesn't care.

Fake bitch..

"Why? So I can listen to you and dad disgusting moans every night, no thank you" I fire back.

"Mason!!"

"Just leave it" I finally say, leaving her stand there shocked, as I hit the door close, after me. I run down the wooden staircase, outside my house, as I tried to hold in the tears. Why did all this happen?!

It couldn't be any worse when I see the person, I least want to see right now, standing in the middle of the road, staring at me. He still have blood on his face, that I can see are barely wiped away with his sleeves. He looks so sad standing there. His eyes are bloodshot, and there were tears streaming down his face.

"What do you want Carter?" I try to sound as harsh and cold as possible. But I couldn't. I could barely stand there facing him. I couldn't held the tears in anymore. They were starting to roll down my face, my cheeks and down my lips.

He didn't answer me. He just stood there looking at me with a face, I couldn't read. Finally, I rolled my eyes and started walking away from him.

"Maggie! Wait?!" He shouted and ran after me. My emotions were everywhere right now. I could barely control it. A part of me wanted to run into his arms and hug him, telling him I loved him so much and everything would go back to the way it was before. But a bigger part of me, couldn't believe what he had just done. Couldn't believe what I saw right in front of my eyes had happened. It was a feeling that I've never felt before. Never before have I felt so betrayed, so sad.

"Go away Carter!" I scream when he grabs my wrist, stopping me. His touch still has an affection on me and I slightly flinch.

"No please, listen" he begged, holding my hands in his, tightly. Trying to look me in the eyes, searching for me.

"Why did you do it?! Why?! Why?!" I suddenly scream, as I hit him on the chest, over and over again screaming in tears. He just stood there looking at me, crying. He looked hopeless. Lost.

"I can't believe you did that!! I hate you" I sobbed and stopped hitting him, staring down at our foots. I felt so weak standing there right in front of him staring down.

"No you don't!" He says in an confidently voice. And it just made me more pissed.

"Yes I do! I hate you so much, I'm gonna explode. Every thing you do is making me furious. You made me fall for you only to break my heart again" I scream furiously at him. Trying to make him feel guilty, because I feel like crap right now and no one can fix it except him. I want him to feel the pain he have made me go through.

"I'm sorry okay?! But you hurt my feelings first. You were the one leaving me first. You don't know, how I felt when, I left you at the rooftop. I felt like crap" he screams back waving his hands. His tears are rolling down his face. This is all just a mess.

"That's doesn't mean you can hurt me back and fucking kiss my best friend" I yell furiously. I tried to look away, while he searches for my eyes.

"I know...I'm sorry.." He sighs. Coming closer he grabs my hands and I slightly cringe. Feeling his touch on me makes my skin burn and feel the need for him. But I can't.

"I didn't know what to do. I was lost. And she was there and supported me and it just happened. Mason. I love you. It's you that I love. That was a mistake. I promise" his voice is shaking. I could hear it.

"That's not an excuse, I don't think I can ever forgive you for this" I whisper back, staring at the ground.

"Mason please" he tried to make me face him, but I jerk away.

"Maggie! He yell while I step backwards, in fright and disgust. Looking at him like he's a monster. Like nothing can fix this.

Turning on my heel, I start to walk faster and faster. He doesn't stop walking after me. Thank god it's nobody here. "Macy!" He yells and it hit me like a bomb. Stopping in my tracks, staring back at him, shocked. The emotions comes back now and I can't do anything about it. My heart feel so empty and the only person that we both know could help me, is him. Only him.

He's there. Right in front of me. Watching me almost break down. All the memories come back again, when I hear him say my name. The name with all the memories. The name he used to call me. The name I grew up with. The tears were all down my face now, dress ruined, makeup smudged, heart broken. Lost. Empty. But he was still there watching me. Waiting for me to come back to him.

"I'm sorry Mason for everything.. I ruined everything, it's all my fault. I should've loved you harder, I should've been there when you needed me the most. I'm so sorry, I love you so much. I didn't know what to do. I thought I wasn't good enough..I-I..I'm just so lost, without you" he screams, crying and it completely shocks me.

If only I told him the day he confessed. If only I told him, I loved him back. None of this would have happened. We wouldn't be standing in front of each other looking like a mess. We both wouldn't have messed things up.

"I-I" i tried to say something but fails, cause I can't feel anything right now. He slowly steps closer to me, trying to take my hands again.

"I can't forgive you Carter" I whisper. He stares at me, only half a meter distance, while he stares down at my face. I look down at the ground. Trying to ignore his gaze.

Finally, my eyes look up at him. His eyes looks at me for hope. Staring back at him, I sigh and step back slowly. "Goodbye Carter..."

THE END

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