The Bad Boy [Carter Reynolds]

The bad boy (29)

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In my veins - Andrew belle

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"You look great baby" she says, while tying my tie. Studying myself in the mirror for a while, I felt my heart drop. I have a really bad feeling about this.

My stomach didn't feel good, and my head was aching. Honestly, I really didn't want to go, but since everyone is going, I feel the need too. And I have some things to fix up.

I gave her a weak smile as she gives me "that" look.

"I'm so proud of you baby" she says, almost tearing up. Her voice is shaking, as she looks me in the eyes.

"Mom..it's prom not graduation" I laugh dryly, hugging her. Trying to comfort her, cause she looked so sad.

"I know" she says, wiping her tears away. I hold her hands in mine, hoping she would stop crying. I hate when people cry. I always had, it makes me want to cry too, even if I wasn't sad, it's just sad to see the other person in pain.

"Are you ready to go?" She finally says, wiping off all hear tears with her sleeves. Trying to pull off a smile.

I nod, swallowing hard as walked out.

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"Say hi to Mason from me" she says, as I stepped out of the car. Her name, hits me like a rock, and I was already starting to shake. I haven't told her anything, and the feeling of guilt is starting to build up in me.

"I will" I say, my tone already hoarse. I really can't keep myself together, when someone mention her name. It's like the world has stopped, and I get a slap in the face every time, I hear her name. Because I screwed it up. She was too good for me, and I knew it all the way from the start. But, still I couldn't keep myself away. There was just something about her corky, adorable, attitude that made me stay by her side. Always. Even though, I was being a dick to her sometimes. I was always there. And I intend it to stay that way. Because I love her. So much. I'm not ready to let go.

Trying to push my self further and further in the crowd full off drunk stinky teenagers. That are actually underage drinking. Fucking juniors ..get out of my way. I push myself further and further in, trying to find her. She must be here. If not, I don't know what I'm doing here myself.

Music was echoing around the hall, in the rooms, and it made me nauseous. I just want to find her, and get the fuck out of here. So many people in one place, it's driving me insane.

In the center off the people, that were dancing, I spot her. My heart immediately drops, when I see her with someone else. She look so perfect, though. In a white dress, that curves her tiny body, perfectly. Never have I, seen her so dressed up. She's stunningly beautiful. Her expression was calm and relaxing, and she looked so happy.

There was a slow dance of course. I don't know what to say or do. I want her back. More than anything. I want to kiss her so badly, I want to be with her so badly. But..I can't make her happy. She already clarified that, I'm not the one for her. I can see that now, that she has moved on. Standing there like an idiot, not knowing what to do. My emotions is all over the place.

I need to get out of here.

Spinning around, I walk straight up to the roof. My thinking place. A place, I always use to go to when my head is not thinking clearly. Opening the big door, I can finally step outside and breath. The cold air hits me hard, and I could feel my body immediately relax.

My head is spinning now, and the only thing, I can think about is her. It took me every single bone, not to go over there and punch the crap out whoever that was, that were dancing with Mason. If I've done that, she would never forgive me though. Ugh why do I always screw things up? Why can't it be me?

I feel so frustrated, like I'm going to cry. My emotions are all over he place, but somehow, I tend to keep myself calm.

After a while of standing there thinking, staring up at the heaven I know now what to do. I need to let her go. No matter how heartbreaking is. She doesn't want me anymore and I need to understand that.

It was only the quiet wind, I could hear, until sobbing caught my ears. I heard light girl sobs, behind the wall only meters away from me. Walking slowly to the sound, I could see a familiar person leaning against the wall.

"Kayla?" I silently ask, walking slowly closer. I wasn't sure if it was her, until her head looked up, as she faced me. She looked so broken. I've never seen her like this and it made me sad.

"Hey, what happened?!" I immediately bend down on my knees in front of her, as I stared her in the eyes, waiting for her to answer me.

"Was it Matt?" I asks even though, I know it was not him. He would never do something like this, so I bet it was Tiffany and Cameron and their gang, that have messed with her feelings. She shook her head frustrated, and cried more.

"Hey tell me" I say, as I wrap my arms around her. Trying to comfort her, as much as possible. Flinching lightly at her cold skin touching mine.

"I feel so left out you know. I always feel like I'm not good enough" she sobs, and starts crying like crazy. It was frightening to see her like this, she had some weird shit that went down from her eyes too. Mascara, I think it's called.

"What happened?" I ask, swallowing the lump in my throat. My voice was still hoarse, not knowing why. Maybe because I felt like crap.

"They just..didn't happen to be the people, I thought they were" she sobs, as she covers her face in her hands, and cries more.

I didn't know what to say. I already knew they were bad people. But what could you do? I held around her, trying to comfort her as much, as I could. She continued crying for a while, and then something unexpected happened at the wrong time, at the wrong place. And then everything got so messed up.

I couldn't even remember what had happened until, I saw Matt beating me in the face harder and harder. It was then, I realized what I have actually done.