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Identity (17)

“  The fish said: “I can’t see my tears because I’m in the water.” “The water said: “I can feel your tears because you’re in my heart.” 

We may hide our own hurts and pains but never can we lie to the people who cares for us the most. Words aren’t needed for them to know how we are.  "

******Evanna's POV******

i was sitting on the moist ground near Anthony waiting for Bash and Free to come so that all three of us could leave. Misha was playing with Ace and Archer as they sat next to me and rolled around on the ground.

While I had first come to the Shadows I was without any baggage. Had nothing with me, No parents, No friends, No feelings.

I was bare of everything.

The only feelings I had were of Betrayal and Anger, which helped me train and provoked me to use my fire.

Deep down even after being kicked out of my own house at the age of 11 with no knowledge of how the world functions, I still had a little love for Mum and Dad, and that was only because of Carter.

Our parents loved us so very much. We were practically a family that every kid wanted to be born into. Every morning mum would come to our rooms and slowly wake us both up and send us to take a bath, then we would all meet near the kitchen and eat one of the bread that mum and dad had baked for their shop. All day I would play with Carter, my 10 year old younger brother we would run around chasing each other, and when he would be deep in slumber i would braid his hair and put a little dab of rose powder from mum's room and he would wake up screaming my name as i would hide under the bed.

He was the only one i actually had. back then when i was younger, my irises used to change colors. it would never settle on one, kids  around my age would call me a freak and would either keep their distance or tease and make fun of me, but Carter would always stand in front of me in a protective stance and say in his cute little bubbly voice, "Don't listen to them Ev, you might be a freak in their eyes, but you're MY freak, and I wont let them hurt you even a little."

I always used to smile at the silly things that he used to say, he was the only one i could play with, talk with, dance with and run around playing pranks on others. He was my saviour. Then every night mum and dad would feed us and put us to sleep singing a lullaby while cradling Carter.

But this wasn't it. My life was a nightmare.

I might be waking up every morning expecting to live my life as it was meant to be, but that wasn't the only time i wake up.

Closing my eyes and laying on the bed was the scariest thing. the minute i would close them i could hear people screaming and crying, red would be the only thing everyone was covered in, because that was blood. All night i would lay awake afraid to close my eyes, pretend to sleep in front of mum and dad.

it felt like i was slowly going crazy. I couldn't tell anyone about it but only Carter knew as he would always end up wrapped tightly around me holding me as if afraid that i would slip away any moment. and maybe I would.

Everything came tumbling down on the eve of my 11th birthday. Mum and dad were baking a big cake while Carter was finding a way to taste it without mum knowing.

All this was suppose to be a planned surprise the night before my birthday so they had tucked me in  bed early, but i could hear them clearly from downstairs as Mum shouted at Carter, "No Carter! That cake is for Eva, you cant taste it yet!! and i just cleaned the floor, how did the mud get in here- Bishop!!! Not you too!" (A.N-Bishop is Evanna's dad)

I would have let out a Small  laugh at how childish dad was being if i hadn't just almost screamed in the pain coming from my back. It made me numb, I could'nt move my hands or legs, i couldn't even call out for mum, all i could do was scream in pain and let out those anguished tears as my eyes were stinging.

Soon my mum and dad had rushed in asking what was wrong. I had lifted the thing night gown from the back and told them that it was hurting. My face was turned the other way so i couldn't see what was happening behind me, but i sure as hell remember the ear piercing scream that mum let out and the loud gasp that followed.

whilst all this Carter had been running towards me and had flung himself across my back and would rub his hands on my back thinking that doing that would somehow reduce the pain.

and then suddenly he was roughly removed from me as i was slapped and thrown to the ground. My back that had been burning had stopped and the shock that my mum has slapped me, had finally absorbed.

I had looked up at her with my hand on my right cheek while she was pulling Carter towards her as he kept running to me, "Don't go near her Carter! She is not your sister!! Its a devil! she is a monster! look at her eyes!! they are burning red! and Only a demon can posses such fire! get away from evil Carter!!"

No, this couldn't be happening, what are they talking about? what eyes?, "No mother! its still me! I'm still ME Eva!!! look at me mother!!!! I'm not demon mother please look at me!" I screamed while she looked away with hatred visible on her face, I turned to father, sure he would listen to me, "Father, Look at me, I'M still Eva! what is mother talking about i have no idea! please look at me! WHY WONT YOU LOOK AT ME!!!??" I said in a loud defeated voice as i sulked and welcomed the tears.

I had heard a sob let out and i looked up to see my mother in my fathers arms as she clutched on to him and silently sobbed while holding Carter tightly. but my father was still standing motionless. and what i saw on his face was something i had never seen in my entire life. Hate, bitterness and resentment and maybe a little loss. He was shaking visibly from the anger as mum started  to talk, "She is gone bishop! she is gone, Our little Eva is gone!! They took her away and left this demon here!"

I had tried to reason with her but dad had roughly grabbed my arm and hauled me downstairs while mum and a crying Carter followed us. He opened the door and threw me out, "Mum why are you making Eva leave??" and mum had said, "She is not your sister or any daughter of ours. All she is and ever will be is a disgrace to the earth n mankind! A monster!!"

Those were the last words i had heard of my parents and the last time i had seen them.

after i got to know who i was and what danger i had possessed for myself and the ones around me, I had asked John to make sure that some of his men would always guard our house and keep my parents and Carter safe and protected and that if anything happens I would be the first to know.

And ever since that day no one has ever reminded me of my family. Or  more like a Used-to-be Family.

I still care about them.

Always did.

Maybe its because they made me. By breaking me.

And here I stand my ground as Evanna Delia Edgar.

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A.N- To b honest this was like a useless filler kinda thing until i post the next chapter...

Adiós!!!

-blue_bleeding_heart <33333