Party is in a full swing and I try to squeeze through a bunch of people dancing and screaming and spilling drinks on the floor. I swear our whole school gathered here tonight. Our house is big but I didn't think it was big enough to host everyone we know. I guess that's what you get if you're Sophia. Gladly Sophia liked how I put the lights or at least Theo convinced her, it's okay and we were able to prepare everything till 8 pm. It's 8.30 right now, and people are already drunk and happy. New Year's is here everyone, let's cheer!
I was feeling a little grumpy because of all the people that I did not like, sorrounding me, but mostly probably because of Sophia constanly wanting to have a make out session with Theo in middle of our couch. Disgusting. Not just that I wanted to be the one to have a make out session with him, it also really was disgusting to look at her, getting drunk.
"I bet she's totally sleeping with someone else tonight. Than maybe you can have Mr. Sohotithurts."
I jump as Zoe suddenly appears next to me, with a red cup of beer in her hands.
"Jesus, Zoe."
I mutter, blushing because she caught me in the middle of my staring at Theo, caught under Sophia.
"What?!"
Zoe exclaims innocently and follows me as I pick up one more cup that ended up on the floor. Mom and Brian are coming back in three days. I doubt we'll manage to clean this up till then. But whatever, it's Sophia's party anyway. She's the one to blame. I guess.
"You like him Shai, admit it already. Or stop drooling over him, if you don't want everyone to know how you feel. Though, I do believe that's hard."
I give her a pointed look, as she bites her lip, looking somewhere past me. Than, I sigh, knowing she's totally right. I am constantly thinking about Theo. God, I even dream about him! What the fuck is wrong with me?!
"Look, I don't want to talk about this tonight."
I mutter to her, throwing all the cups in the trash. Zoe lifts up her hands.
"Okay, okay. Just don't let Miles find out. You know how he feels about you. And don't pretend you don't."
Ouch. She's right, I'm here dreaming of a guy, I clearly can't have, while my best friend is watching that while crushing on me. And that must hurt him. I'm a terrible person.
"I so need a drink."
I complain bitterly and run off to find some beer. Nope, I need something stronger. Pouring alot of Whiskey in my cup, I try to get all the problems from my head. I won't worry. Not tonight. Tonight is about having fun. And I'm so intending to do that.
"Hello gorgeous."
Miles' voice bumps into my ears along with the loud music. I jump, turning around.
"Jumpy today, aye?"
He laughs, holding my cup, so I don't spill everything.
"Thanks."
I smile to him, trying not to look too guilty. I know we don't have anything and I shouldn't feel guilty, but I know it would hurt him.
"Anytime."
"So, you enjoying my stepsister's party?"
I wink at him, laughing and trying to make a conversation. I'm so stupid. He's my best friend. This shouldn't be so hard.
"Surprisingly yes. But I'm going to hang with you if you don't mind. New Year's or not, Sophia's friends don't seem like a good company to me."
I smile lifting my cup.
"Cheers to that."
"Cheers."
I finally manage to forget all of my problems by talking to Miles on our terrace and pouring more and more alcohol in my body. Luckily, I also manage not to do anything stupid. For the first time in past few months, I'm again completely relaxed in Miles' company. We are once again best friends, making eacother laugh to death. It's half past eleven, which means only half an hour till midnight. Half an hour till New Year. Till 2015. I wonder if it's going to be good. Of course it will be. I'm leaving for college, away from Sophia and Brian. What could be better than that?
Miles decides to leave me from all of the sudden.
"Oh come on, where are you going?"
I say pulling on his shirt, clearly a little drunk.
"Don't worry princess. I'll make sure to be back for your midnight kiss."
He says, leaning in, our faces just inches away from eacother. I giggle, pushing him away. He laughs too, but my brain is telling me, maybe this wasn't all a joke. Oh god. I push that thought from my mind, as another person joins me. Theo. Oh no. I was avoiding him for the whole evening, because being around him just hurts so much. I can't accept his not mine. Jesus Shailene, when did you become so cheesy?
"Escaped your girlfriend, huh?"
I mock him, leaning on the fence and looking forward to the city lights. Everything is so beautiful.
"Nah, she left me for one of her friends. I guess I've been ditched till midnight."
I laugh, rolling my eyes a little. So typical of Sophia. If he was mine, I'd... oh enough of this already!
"So you came to join me? Not worried, she might be jealous?"
"Oh she's busy enough."
He answers me, fixing a strand of my hair. I feel shivers, going up my spine. That's weird. He's clearly a little drunk too. I smile at him nervously, quickly drinking the rest of my whiskey.
"Woah, slow down there. We don't want you to end up with some random guy in bed after midnight, do we?"
I roll my eyes and a little hick up escapes my mouth. Oh great, maybe I did have a little too much to drink tonight.
"Well maybe I might just end up in bed with you and you're not some random guy, are you?"
WHAT THE HELL SHAI?!
"Well that might as well be the last thing we do. Sophia would kill us both."
Theo laughs. I really hope, he didn't process that and this conversation would be forgotten till tomorrow. I mustn't say anything like that again.
"But you would do that? Even if it was the last thing you'd do?"
I hear myself giggle. WHAT. Haven't I said enough?! Theo moves closer to me and heat rises upon my whole body. What is going on? Me and my stupid alcohol mouth. Now he must think, I'm crazy.
He's standing just inches away and it's different from Miles doing that before. I feel numb and incapable of doing anything. I barely stand. We stare at eachother for a few seconds like that and I feel a certain need of his lips on mine. Right now. What the fuck, no! He's Sophia's boyfriend, you hear me Shailene?! H E I S N O T Y O U R S.
"Maybe."
I hear him whisper, feeling his warm breath on my face. Oh god. I might just fall. Suddenly a countdown begins in the background, ending our perfect moment. Cold air fills sudden space between us and Theo looks just as confused as I do.
"Er..sorry I've got to find Sophia."
Is the only thing he says, before storming off. What the hell just happened? I hold on to the fance to keep myself from falling. You fell for this guy Shailene. You fell hard.
A/N: Sorry for such a late update guys, but here it is! Uh, things are starting to heat up, yay. I really hope you like this chapter and you also feel free to leave your opinion in the comments. Love you all!
xx,
Špela
