Trying to make myself more comfortable on my bed (unsuccesfully of course), I stared at his text for at least fifteen minutes. Questions were flowing through my brain. So many questions, I wasn't even aware of everything I was wondering. What is he thinking? Is he serious? Why does he want to see me after avoiding me for three freaking weeks?! Did he maybe send it to the wrong person?
My whole body went completely numb, and I wasn't sure I was able to walk. The clock on the phone said 5.30 pm. Half an hour. I had half an hour to figure out what to do. Should I go? But that would be wrong! I mean I hate Sophia, but if she's out of town, that doesn't really mean I can go after her boyfriend, right? God, Shailene who says something like that's going to happen? Maybe he just wants to talk. He probably wants to tell you he was stupid and drunk and there's nothing for him in you. The problem was, I didn't want to hear that. I couldn't let him break my heart into thousand pieces, just by telling me he feels nothing. I wanted to believe he does. But what if he probably doesn't?
I stopped staring at the wall and dialed Zoe's number instead. She was the only one who knew intirely about this Theo thing. Miles was my best friend, true, but he would probably be the last person in the world I'd tell. Next to Sophia of course. I'd only do that If I'd have death wish. I furrowed my eyebrows while I waited for my slow friend to pick up. Why is he risking? If Sophia finds out I've been at his place, there will be a big fight about that. But on the other side, he could just say, I dropped something off. Or maybe If he's really mean, he'd tell Sophia I've been throwing myself at him and he just wanted to clear things up? Oh no, it's not that, is it? He wasn't just pretending to be my friend, just to get back at me with something like that? No, I refuse to believe that. No matter what we had, he's not so mean. Or maybe he is.
"Yuupp?"
Zoe picked up, before I could think any further.
"Zoe..Theo texted me."
I said, unsure, of how to explain this. Even I didn't know what was going on. How could I explain it to Zoe?
"WHAT?!"
She exclaimed and it went right into my ear. Ouch.
"What did he say?!"
The situation was pretty serious, but I could say, Zoe was excited. I rolled my eyes. So typical of her.
"He wants me to come by at his place at 6."
I had to hold my phone few inches away from my ear, as Zoe squeeked through it in a high-ptiched tone.
"Oh my god, Shai, he's so into you!"
I sighed, numerous butterflies in my stomach, dancing around so it already hurt.
"Or he just wants to tell me, he's NOT into me and to step away from him."
I expressed my doubts in words. Zoe sighed impatiently.
"Yeah, like that's going to happen. He would not say he'd sleep with you, not even drunk, If he wouldn't be at least a little attracted to you."
"MAYBE sleep with me."
"Whatever."
I sighed again, looking around. What if she's right? What if he really does have feelings for me? No. I don't want to think about that. I don't want to get my hopes up.
"I don't know if I should go.."
I finally told her. And the expected response came in a second.
"What do you mean, of course you should go! Listen, you have 15 minutes and you're going. Even If I have to drag you there myself!"
Zoe's words were kind of funny, but they also gave me some courage. I really hope I won't regret my decision.
"Okay than. Cover for me in case my mom calls or something."
"Yeah, no problem. You've got this girl! Don't forget to inform me about how it went."
"Yeah, yeah, see you."
I said nervously and hung up. Is this really right?
I didn't want to think further. I just grabbed my car keys and stormed out of the room.
"Mom, I'm going to Zoe's! Don't wait up!"
I scream to the kitchen as I put on my leather jacket and black converse. I honestly don't look like the most attractive person in the world. I'm very simply dressed, just black jeans and some black t-shirt with a print. My hair fall losely on one side of my neck and I really don't know how can I go to someone I really like, dressed like that. What the hell Shailene, what, you wanna go dressed like a slut? I than remind myself and shrug. That's true tho.
I barely hear my mother's goodbye as I slam the door behind me and start my car, driving toward's Theo's flat. I've never been in his apartment before, I was just outside of it, after our christmas shopping. At least I knew where he lived. I tried not to think too much, so I wouldn't change my mind and turn around. I'm making this clear with him today. Once and for all. Pressing the button 5, the elevator gets me almost right in front of his door. 6.05. Almost on time. I take abig breath and knock. I really hope I'm not regretting this.
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