Trying to calm my legs from trembling constantly, I'm staring at his white door, that say apartment 3. I listen carefully but nothing seems to be moving inside. What the hell? Did he fall asleep perhaps? Or worse, was this a really bad joke? My heart is literally racing and I fear, I might faint right in the spot. I lean closer and try to lean my ear on the door, as they open and I almost fall in his arms.
"Woah."
I hardly restore my balance, blushing hard. Great, and now he caught me almost eavesdroping on his door.
"Oh..Shailene.. hey.."
He says and an awkward silence falls between us.
"Uh hey..I..I got your message..I-I mean maybe you sent it to the wrong person..I'm sorry I should probably go.."
I start blabbing all over the place, not even sure what I'm trying to say. Okay, maybe I really should go. I look at Theo nervously, just to see him grinning a little.
"No, no, that's okay, I sent it to you. Come in."
I can see he's a little nervous, but not even as close as I am. As I'm trying not to trip at his doorstep, I take my Converse off, stepping forward into his living room. I must say, he has a pretty great taste. The place is modern and the walls are covered in different pictures, made by someone who has a really good sense for photography.
"Did you take those?"
I ask motioning at the pictures. He nods, with a little smile on his lips.
"Yeah, do you like them?"
Like them? They're amazing! As you are.
"Yes, they're really good."
I say normally, ignoring my inside that is screaming things, he should not hear. I still don't know why he called me here. And I still fear it's because of telling me, that the event on our New Years' party meant absolutley nothing.
"Thanks. Please, take a sit."
He says, pointing at the sofa. I sit down and watch him disappear into another room. Probably the kitchen. What if this is the evening I'll get my heart truly and absolutley broken? I don't think I ever fell so hard for someone as I did for Theo. But he was my stepsister's boyfriend! I don't care about Sophia, not even a little. But that doesn't mean, It's okay to do that to her.
Do what Shailene? Who even says, anything will happen? Maybe it's not even about you! Maybe he just needs some help with something.
I groan bitterly. Yeah, that would be awesome.
"Something wrong?"
I turn around, facing Theo that's holding two glasses of wine. Woah. Are we celebrating something?
"No."
I shake my head, smiling.
"Oh okay. You drink wine? it's sadly the only thing I have at the moment. Or water."
"Wine is good."
I answer, taking one glass and having a sip from it. If not anything else, alcohol will help me to get through this evening. Oh god, now I'm talking like an alocholic. Just great.
Theo takes his time and than finally sits beside me.
"How are you?"
I hardly hold back the urge of rasing one of my brows. How am I?! Well, stressed out, if it's not obvious enough. Why is he doing this small talk?!
"Uh well, good, and you?"
I answer, trying to sound completely calm, though I'm afraid I might break the glass in my hands. I take another sip from it quickly. Damn, this wine is actually pretty good.
