I was sitting in a back seat, ignoring Sophia's annoying voice while she talked to Theo. I stared through the window and tried to get rid of the thoughts that were constanlty pumping in my head. Thoughts about a person that just three months ago, I thought I hated the most. Thoughts about him. Thoughts about a person sitting right in front of me. Thoughts about Theo James.
Something was different since this day. Since I saw him in the school's parking lot. Being mean to him just didn't feel right anymore. And I caught myself countless times just staring at him. That's why I was so angry with myself lately. I couldtn't possibly like this guy. He was dating Sophia. And...well I have nothing else to add, I admit but still. This one reason is more than enough.
So I just generaly kept myself busy. I went out with Zoe, listened to her fangirling and when she tried to talk about themosthotguyonearthalsoknownastheojames, I just cut her off, pretending I saw something really interesting. I even hung out with Miles more. I mean not like in a just best friend way. And he seemed to enjoy it. Of course, becuse he has a crush on you! Small voice in my head reminded me, but I just shut it out.
One day, when me and Sophia got from school home, there was lunch waiting for us as usually. So while we sat down and ate in our normal boring family style, Sophia said in that serious voice that she used when she announced she's bringing Theo home.
"Isobel, dad can I ask you something?"
She broke up with Theo and found herself another boyfriend that was more like her? I suddenly heard in my mind and I had to bit my tongue not to scream at myself. I quickly put more potato in my mouth.
"Sure sweetie, what is it?"
My mom smiled nicely and I almost rolled my eyes.
"So, remember when saying you'll be out of town for New Year's?"
Brian nodded and furrowed his eyebrows, I raised mine. What? When did they say that? I gave my mom a whendidyouwantedtotellmethat look and she smiled apologizinly, but I was already a little mad at her. So now she is telling things to Sophia and I have to wait that oportunity like this to get to know things?! Before I could start to argue, Sophia already continued.
"So uh..me and Theo wondered if we could have a party here? Just a few friends from school? We'll be good, I promise!"
She said with her begging voice. She wants to throw a party here? I looked surprised. Brian and mom looked unsure. I didn't know what to think. Party was a good idea. Just not from Sophia's side.
"Pleaseeee daddy!"
She squeeked.
"And Shailene can invite that...people she calls friends too."
I raised my brows at her. She really did this? She said I can invite Zoe and Miles? Is this a christmas miracle? Or is she just making fun of me and using me as a convincing tool for my mom and her dad?
They still looked unconvinced but when she mentioned me, they were suddenly in a better mood. My mom even smiled. Probably because she thought we're getting closer. Pha, like that's going to happen.
"Well, why not."
Gave up Brian and Sophia let a high yay escape her mouth. Than she started to thank him and kissing him all over the face. I rolled my eyes. God she's so spoiled. Ugh, I hate her. But I was still angry with my mom for not telling me things. So I furiously stood up and threw my napkin on the table. Brian looked surprised.
"Is anything bothering you Shailene?"
He wanted to know, but I just glanced at mom.
"Is being nice to you and letting invite your friends on a party not enough?"
Sophia said in her annoying tone. Now I glanced at her and than sighed.
"No Sophia, don't flatter yourself. Though you're a big pain in my ass, not all my problems are about you!"
I said and than looked back at mom who was quiet.
"I'm just so glad that mom still tells me everything."
I threw the words in my mom's face and stormed off to my room. I felt kind of betrayed. I was always convincing myself that me thinking about that she takes Sophia for the favorite one was just because I hated Sophia that much. But now it might actually turn out to be true. I slammed the doors behind me and threw myself on the bed, covering myself with a blanket. I wanted to see my dad. I bet I'd get along with him much more. But he was living on the other side of the country and when my parents divorced they agreed that it would be the best for me to stay in Chicago, where I was born. Of course it was better because of Zoe and Miles. But nothing else.
I quietly sobbed. God Shailene, don't cry! It's not worth it! In one year you're off to college an than you can move away. Away from this crazy people you call family. I managed to calm myself before I heard a light knock on the door. I knew it was mom and I didn't answer.
"Shailene?"
I heard her concernd voice. I was just stubbornly staring at the wall.
"Can I come in?"
She asked, but I didn't answer. She'll come in anyway. And she did. Covering myself with a blanket even more, hearing her approaching the bed. Bed moved when she sat down and everything was quiet for few minutes. I wasn't intending to talk to her.
"Shailene, listen. I know why you're upset and I'm sorry. I should've told you. I...I just didn't know how. I mean, since now we've always been together for New Year. And this year Brian's company invited him in New York to celebrate there. And it only seemed fair to go with him. I mean, you and Sophia are big enough to take care of yourselves. But still. Actually...I didn't know how to talk to you ever snce the divorce. I'm really sorry it happened to you Shailene, I am."
Than she was quiet again, and I was fighting with tears. I know it was hard for her too. I haven't been the easiest person to take on last two years. But it just hurt me so much. She sighed and kissed blanked where it covered my head and than stood up.
As heard her leave the room, I felt my anger slowly fading away.
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