i'm a fool

chapter one

August 12th
Deenas pov

"Deena, time for school!" My mom shouted in the distance. "Im up for fucks sake." "Watch your mouth!" I groaned, i got up. I had a pounding headache, i sighed, getting changed. I threw on one of my brown flannels, put on my jeans and docs. I headed downstairs, going to the kitchen.

"Hi baby, i made you breakfast." My mom told me, "Not hungry." I sat at the table, she sighed. Turning around, "Honey you have to eat.. and fix your hair, brush it or something.. It's a mess." She shouted. I rolled my eyes, josh slurping on his orange juice.

"Eat." My mom told me, i rolled my eyes. I had toast and eggs, i put the toast in my mouth and picked up my backpack to get on the bus. "Uhm?" My mom shouted. "Mom please i'm going to be late!" I groaned. She ran up to me. She kissed my forehead, "I love you baby. Now stop being a little shit and learn something hm?" I sighed, walking out the door.

"God so fucking annoying- fucking bitch fucking annoying ass brother- i hate it here fucking bitch." I whispered to myself, walking to the bus. I got on the bus, sitting down in the back.. I liked it back there, no one really bothered me anyways.

I was completely unbothered until someone caught my eye.. Sam Fraser.. God she was a beauty. I had a crush on her ever since the 7th grade, we were in a play together.. Playing each others love interest, we kissed.. She was my first. I spend most of my days thinking about her.

She would never talk to me of course, i mean she was the lead cheerleader, her dad was super rich and famous.. She'd never want to talk to a freak like me.. Plus.. She has a boyfriend. A football player, Cole.

But god.. She was so so beautiful. I smiled, seeing her talking to her friends, her smile was so pretty.. Her dimples showing, the way her strawberry blonde hair layed on her shoulders.. Everything about that girl was so goddamn precious.

I was completely in my gaze, like everything around me had completely stopped. I was fine until Sam's friend saw me, and said something to sam.. Sam looked back at me and i immediately looked away. I slowly looked back, she was still staring at me. We made eye contact and she smirked, turning back around.

I felt my whole body quiver.. Did she just.. Smile at me? I couldn't help but feel my face get hot, i replayed it back in my head, seeing her look at me in slow motion.. Now that she smiled at me? I felt like i was the shit.

We soon got to school and i got off the bus last, walking to my locker, while i got in my locker, i felt like a body push me over a bit. I groaned and looked behind me, it was Cole.. He didn't mean too but i saw him with sam, him covering her ass, he was so full of himself i couldn't help but clench my jaw.

i put my stuff away and went to 1st period, what could go wrong? My only friend was in this class, Kate.. We met grade 2 and have been inseparable ever since. And even other cherry to my day, sam was in this one also, she was in my first, third, forth, and fifth classes.

"Hey there dip shit." Kate whispered, i went over to my seat, we sat by each other. "Dude- omg sam looked at me this morning on the bus.. She smiled at me!" I whispered to kate. Kate loved hearing about my love life, i mean it has always been about sam but she loved seeing my progress, she was always there for me.. She was a great friend.

"Really?!!? OMG" Kate squealed. I nodded, putting my head down. Hiding my face and tapping my leg, i was hiding that i was blushing. She shook me, "Do you think??.." She asked. I sighed, "No.. It was probably just a friendly look.." I told her. She tilted her head to the side, "It's gonna be okay deena.. She will fall for you in a heartbeat i'm sure of it." I smiled softly.