The Girl Unseen (Cha Hyunsoo x Reader) {SWEET HOME FANFIC}

Chapter 10- First Time for Everything

TW: Small mention of self-harm and suicidal thoughts

We searched apartment by apartment to find what they asked for. More sunscreen for Jae-hwan, pet food for Hye-in and her dog Bom, another journal from Ji-eun's room for her diary collection, and etc. It was so late and we were so tired but something was just bugging me.

All I wanted was more time with Hyunsoo, he was the only one who understood me. He was in the same fucked up half-human and half-monster form and also understood the trauma of losing family, I at least had Chaeyoung and he unfortunately didn't have SuA but he understood the loss of parents and understood the ideas of suicidal thoughts and self-harm

We just understood each other, and that's all I could wish for in a partner in crime.

No, he's not interested in me like that. Is he? I mean he did kinda stare when he walked in on me and the girls having fun at the Moxi Motel. Maybe he just thought I was weird or the hairstyle didn't look good on me.

God I really hoped he liked me.

"Hey Y/N!" I was lost in my thoughts until he spoke and even then I was dazed in the ethereal facial features of him. He snapped his fingers in front of my face and I focused in on what he was saying.

"Sorry, I dazed off. What were you saying?" I asked

"Should we go back down now or do you need anything from your place? I don't need anything from my place." He explained.

"No I don't need anything, but I really don't want to go back downstairs just yet." I sighed as we stepped into the stairwell.

"Where would we go then?" Hyunsoo asked.

"Wanna go to the roof? It's 1am, we might be able to see the stars and Eun-hyuk just said we'd have to be back by tomorrow at sunrise at the latest, I mean we have at least like six or seven hours." I suggested.

"Sure. I mean I would like a break from all of Eun-hyuk and those guys' demands." Hyunsoo smiled slightly and I started going upstairs.

We reached the rooftop and I just set down my backpack and sat up on the edge of the building, my feet hanging off the edge as I sighed and inhaled a large breath of the night air. It was as fresh as city air could get but also had the slight metallic smell unique to blood. It really made me realize how this world was apocalyptic and how much I felt lucky to be alive and one of the special infected people who could help others.

I looked down and saw no monsters below before just sighing.

What if I jumped right now?

Would that kill me?

Do I really want to live?

"Hey? You okay?" I felt a warm hand on my own and looked down to my hand resting on my lap which Hyunsoo had covered with his own. My heart stopped and my stomach flipped upside down, I swear I couldn't see anymore and just blacked out.

"Y-yeah, just thinking." I stuttered and looked down at the ground.

"Don't jump, don't even think about it. Chaeyoung needs you. I need you. We all need you."

He needs me?

"What do you mean you need me?" I asked and he tensed up. I felt him loosen up and exhale a large breath he sucked in. I looked to him and felt something collide with my lips. My eyes almost burst out of their sockets when I realized he was kissing me.

I felt him start to pull away and I panicked, quickly grabbed the sides of his neck and pulling him back in to kiss him again and this time I was returning it and actually enjoying the moment by closing my eyes.

We pulled away from the small and sweet kiss mutually. We slowly opened our eyes and just stared at each other, quite dazed from the reality of what just happened.

"I like you." I stated and he gave a small smile.

"I like you too." He spoke and I let out a big breath I didn't realize I was holding in. He just chuckled a bit before looking back out over the building.

"Does this mean you'll date me?" He asked.

"Yes of course! I'll date you as much as we can in this fucking fucked world." I scoffed with a laugh.

"Till the end?" He asked holding out his pinky finger and looking at me.

"Till the end." I smiled locking my finger with his and he pulled my arm closer and we locked lips again.

He tastes like strawberry chapstick and his lips were as soft as clouds which surprised me. They were like that pink cotton candy at school fairs, I could taste it. I could kiss him for hours to be honest, but I was afraid of being greedy.

But now that it was official, he was mine and I was his, would it be so wrong to be a tiny bit greedy when it comes to attention and affection?