Hyung (HeeJayWon short story) ✔

Chapter 28 (Last Goodbye)

(The title is speaking for itself)

Jay

A few days after the huge revelation, Heeseung requested to be discharged so he can live the rest of his life outside the hospital to which the doctors agreed.

That alone can only indicate that they no longer see life in him and would rather let him live in happiness than suffering in a room for the rest of his life. After he was discharged, I immediately asked him out on a date. Not only him is the one who wants to be happy for the last moments, me too.

We headed to an amusement park because he wants to ride on the ferris wheel to watch the sunset.

Both of us are not sure to how long he will last outside but no matter how long, I want to treasure it with all my heart.

I just can't accept the fact that Heeseung will leave any time and will never come back. In addition to my fear, Jungwon was confined to the hospital as Heeseung requested him to be ready for operation if Heeseung is gone.

"We're here baby. ."

I wake him up when the line for the ferris wheel shortened.

I checked the time and it is close to sunset.

I went to the operator to make some requests that we will stay longer at the top before he will lower us down. Thankfully he agreed after I pleaded.

I want Heeseung to be happy at least.

When we reached the top, he was smiling as I look at him.

I can't hold back my tears when I look back at those times where I just cook him a meal, where I just bring him at the parks. I should've brought him to a five star restaurant instead, or the restaurant in the sky, or even out of the country. I should've made him experience family more. I should've introduced him earlier to my parents. I should've proposed long time ago.

I missed a lot despite being almost five years together. I did him nothing very memorable to which I regret now.

"Why are you crying again?"

"I'm sorry . . . I never take you to fancy dates or memorable ones. . I should've shown you how much.  .  . I love you . . I am sorry I am confident we will have much time. . I'm sorry . .

Heeseung just smiled me before grabbing my hand.

"Don't think like that. Those five years are the best years of my life. . you made me happy and contented. I have the best years with you. But we cannot beat time. . don't mourn after I die. . instead, cherish the time you have to make happy memories with the ones you love. Don't be sad for long. Be happy again because that is all I want for you"

Even if I really find it so hard and painful, I nodded as he pulled me in for an embrace. I hugged him as right as I could.

I release from the hug before placing my lips on his for maybe the last time. I kissed with as the tears continue to fall and the sun continue to set.

"Take care of Jungwon . . ."

"I will . . ."

"Tell him to enjoy life. . tell him not to be sorry. Tell him whatever he is asking me for forgiveness for was already forgiven. . . "

"I will tell him . . . and I will make sure . .  he----  we will be happy, for you"

When we reach the ground, Heeseung asked to drive to the hospital and with his voice, I know it's time.

While in the car, his skin is a lot paler and his hand is colder. Immediately, I stopped the car as his grip on my hand loosened. I pulled his cold body beside me for the last time as I am fully aware that life was already gone from him.

I carried him to the hospital to fulfill his last wish.

The doctor gave me a empathetic look as they wheeled Heeseung to the operating room. Not long after, I heard my name being called.

I look up and saw Jungwon still with his dextrose in running towards Heeseung.

He began to loose his strength as the bed where Heeseung was on is slowly being wheeled inside the operating room.

I ran towards Jungwon as I caught him in my arms trying to calm him down.

"I'm sorry . . . I'm sorry . .. "

"Sshh ..  Calm down. . whatever you're sorry for . ..  I'm sure Heeseung has forgiven you. . . Wonie, calm down. . ."

He began to cough violently making me call the doctors as he suddenly loose consciousness.

"We need to proceed with the operation. . . . "

"Please save him."

They wheeled his bed again to where they just brought Heeseung.

Stay with me Jungwon. . . Please. . .

Jungwon

My eyes opened and I am in an all white place. I cannot see any dimension and I cannot see any edge.

Where am I exactly?

"Jungwon. . . I'm here"

"Heeseung hyung?"

Indeed, he is standing in front of me.

"Don't panic, let me talk . . you're not dead.  .  and I am here to thank you for surviving. . take Care of yourself ok? And watch over our Jongseong. . . don't ever think of saying sorry to me because whatever you're asking sorry for is already forgiven. . I just want to tell you to wake up and get well soon. Oh and the love you have for Jay, . . keep it. . "

Before I even react, he is gone and I am back in the hospital where I saw myself lying on the bed.

Did I just finished my operation successfully?

The door opened and Jay entered with some take out food and some snacks.

He removed his jacket revealing him on his shirt before he walk towards the bathroom. He came back with a basin of water and a towel.

"Yang Jungwon. . . that name sounds great tho . . but if you may, I want your surname for 19 years back. . Park Jungwon, it sounds prettier right? . . wake up now please. . . it's been a month. And it's getting lonely. . ."

He began to wipe my face and my arms then my feet.

"You know, you missed Sunoo and Ni-ki's engagement.  .."

What?

"Jokes aside . . . they're too young. . . but they missed you too much . . I miss you too. ."

I cannot help but cry as I look at him.

Even with his smile, I can see how gloomy he looks at the moment.

He is not the strong man I used to know as his eyes just hold sadness.

"I will wake up soon Jay . . . I will come back to you. . .

Heeseung hyung . . . thank you"

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