Don't Let Go - Nathan Sykes Fanfiction

Chapter 13 - A Truth And A Promise

"Shit," I managed to yell out after a long battle of trying to stay silent from the agony. As my right hand spread across my bed, I winced in more pain, clutching my stomach and squeezing Nathan's hand as hard as the pain would make me. I knew what was going on, and clearly Nathan did too. If anyone found out about this, I'd be dead. What would Tom say, we'd only slept together once. I'd slept with Nathan many more times, which would kill Tom. I have no intentions of hurting him but I had loved Nathan since the day we met. And then there's Jay, he'd go ballistic. I let a single tear roll down my cheek as Nathan placed his hand, that was free, around my waist. He picked me up slowly and layed me down on my bed. Thinking it would relieve the pain, I kicked my feet impatiently. When would this pain end?

Nathan pulled my chair away from the mirror stand and lifted it over by my bed. He took both of my hands this time and wept, with his head on the bed. 

"I'm so sorry Jenny, I'm so sorry." Nathan said. I tried to smile though it was no use.

"It's OK, it's all my fault! I never though in a million years that this would happen. It wasn't planned at all, none of this was. Not for me to fall in love with you from the day we met or to sleep with you when I was potentially going out with one of your best friends and then not to forget my brother who is also one of your best friends." 

"No, it's both of our fault, more mine! And I didn't mean for any of this either." He said and I squeezed his hand. 

"Thank you so much Nathan," I whispered, worried in case any of the boys had heard me crying, "if Tom ever finds out, he'll think it's his. He doesn't know that we were ever together, right?" Nathan hesistated.

"Well whatever happens, we're in this together. I'll be a good parent, I'll provide for the child and I'll promise to always be there." I lifted my head of the pillow and Nathan placed his left hand on my cheek. He leant in and placed his lips on mine. I felt those same tingles from our first kiss shoot along my spine as our lips moved in sync. 

I suddenly pulled away.

"Well when you've been cheated on, you aren't exactly put in a good mood, are you?"

I stopped and turned around. Nathan looked really upset and he couldn't look me in the eyes. I walked back over to him and put my hand on his shoulder. He slid it off and got up and left. "I'm so sorry, I wasn't to know." I whispered as he walked off. I swallowed hard as the music played in the background.

I snapped out of the daydream when Nathan started to tap me.

"Nathan, we shouldn't have done that!" He looked at me in surprise.

"Why?" 

"You're with Ellie," I said practically yelling it. He looked down and the smile dropped from his face.

"Shit, don't tell her, please. I'm scared Jenny." I didn't think I'd ever forgive him after the night he dumped me but the look on his face made my change my mind. Now I had so much on my mind, I'd forgot how much I had loved Nathan before.

Around ten mintues later, the pain had died down with it being just about bearable. I took a paracetamol and got up of the bed. Nathan wiped away the tears from his eyes as we heard footsteps on the landing. He ran with the chair and put it where he had first taken it from and headed for my door. At that moment there was a knock at my door, and someone's familiar whistling. 

"Tom, you can come in," I said as Nathan was stood at the door. Nathan looked up at Tom and walked out of my room faster than I'd ever seen him run. Tom watched as Nathan went into his room before turning his attention back to me.

"We're heading to Ameirca next week. Jay wondered if you wanted to join us, instead of staying here alone." 

"Well since Jess went back to University, I may as well. How long are you going for?" I replied.

"I'm not too sure. I'm sure it's for about two months. Then we head to Australia for a week and then to Asia for a month. We have a few meetings with Scooter and then a few gigs... Oh and promotion."

"Wow, sounds hectic! Yeah, I'd love to go."

"Cool," Tom said and he turned around. "Oh, and why where you crying before?" I looked at him in pure shock.

"How, how do you know?" I said quietly, playing with my nails.

"Well red eyes and loud cries usually give way to the fact that someone has been crying. Oh and Nathan too." Shit, I thought. He couldn't know, not now. How was it possible for Tom to know?

At that moment my phone flashed and it was one new text from Nathan.

'Don't give in. We need to tell as little people as possible. Tom is smitten, bbe. Just believe in me Jenny xx' I blinked and re-read the text. Those four words. 'Just believe in me,' why was he acting so strange and Tom too? Ever since that night when Nathan, Tom and the other boys had been at the interviews. I looked up at Tom who was still looking directly at me.

"I don't know why. I... I... I don't know. Thank you for asking but I'm fine."

"OK, cool. I'm just going out tonight with Kelsey, Jay and Kelsey - Ann. You can join if you want too?" 

"Erm, I'll consider it. Thank you." He smiled and walked out of the room.

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As my first Christmas and New Year without my family passed by, soon I was packing to leave for America. I'd spend the next few months living a lie, in the most awkward experience I felt I'd ever have. What would I do? What would I say? I needed time alone with Nathan but I knew Tom and Jay would easily get suspicious.

The boys had spent most of January in the UK writing, after being in the US for a few days. They had recently won a PCA, voted for by theirs fans and the boys were ecstatic! They were to spend the whole on February and March in America and in the end I decided to join them. Siva had invited Nareesha, who brought along Kelsey. I really hoped Nathan wouldn't mention anything to anyone! The next few months of my life would be a nightmare.

As Jay brought in a large pink suitcase into my room, I dragged it into my walk in wardrobe and picked out some outfits. I managed to go through my whole wardrobe before picking out only five outfits. It only struck me then that I'd need to go shopping for more clothes. That was if I wanted clothes with some space. Having a baby means maternity clothes. I needed maternity clothes, urgently. 

As I sighed heavily there was a knock at my door. "Come in," I shouted. I turned around and saw Nathan stood at the door. It had been at least a month since I'd found out that I was pregnant, since Nathan made me take a test, after that night of pain. We hadn't really spoken properly since, as it'd been a hectic few weeks. 

"Hey, you OK?"

"Yeah, but I think I'll nead to go out and by, well you know... Clothes," I sad and Nathan chuckled slightly. He had been rumaging through my clothes when he turned around to face me.

"OK, I'll go with you. Tomorrow?" he said and I smiled.

"Great, thank you for helping me. I'm sorry for ever being so horrid to you. You've always been there for me, I guess."

"Whatever has been said, it's in the past," he said and I nodded. 

"Pinky swear?" He laughed.

"You know it!" Nathan said and we did our trademark pinky swear.

"And, have you told Ellie yet? I mean does she know... Anything?" Nathan looked at me in the eyes.

"No, I've told no one, you can trust me." He said and kissed my forehead before walking out of the room. I stood my suitcase upright against my feature wall and got ready for bed. Tomorrow I needed to go shopping and catch some last bit of sleep before leaving for the airport at two in the morning the next day.