The Worst of Us - Hyunjin Centric

The Choice

Since after the court trial two months, Hyunjin's name began to get cleared up by the news. And the death penalty began to charged a month ago to the suspects, all of the members and Hyunjin's family's heart couldn't help but cried out in happiness specially for Chan and Jaehyun. Jaehyun also couldn't help but felt too overwhelmed that even after he failed to protect Hyunjin, still the latter's family and members treated him very well and also began to cared for him like he's already part of their family. No one blamed him for what happened and it hurts him inside. Because he's still blaming himself and as long as Hyunjin's not waking up or making even an inch of progress for being declared as brain dead by the doctors since a month ago, he will not stop blaming himself.

It's also been two months since Hyunjin was declared to be only depending on the life machine and there's 99% possibility that he will not wake up again, all of his loved ones are still not giving up on him even if the doctor's already making them to choose wether he will be depending on the life machine for as long as they want or they will make him suffer no more by giving him a peaceful euthanasia. And of course all of his loved ones specially Hyunjin's parents roared out of giving their child a chance, they're all trying to believe that Hyunjin will wake up again. And for the members they couldn't think even slightly of continuing without Hyunjin.

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Chan POV

It's already friday means that we're closing of having our weekend day off again which made me happy again thinking of having a time to visit my lover again. Since Hyunjin became like a soulless doll, I felt that my whole world crumbled down and the old happy me, the heart of mine was also being stolen by Hyunjin with his deep sleep. I couldn't focus on anything and I'm also not blind for not noticing the drastic changes inside our dorm.

Since Hyunjin forced to be incubated on life machine our members began to draw apart specially Minho who's already quite distant from everyone of us became more like a stoned statue and because of that the other temperant member like Changbin became furious of Minho's changed of attitude that caused a quite large of misunderstanding that decided to JYP to forced grouping us into two to separate our dorms. At first, I tried to refused but Minho agreed and said that he wanted to changed dorm or else the growing despite of him between Changbin became bigger if they're seeing each other everyday, JYP already agreed. The 3racha which includes me are the first group goes to a new different dorm and the remaining four members are assigned at the second floor higher than our dorm. We're still at the same building though but it's still quite big difference specially that there's no Hyunjin who can melt our guards down with his childish smile and innocent but quite mischievous personality. There's no Hyunjin who can cool Minho's and Changbin's anger.

I became even more restless and depressed since the fued happened. It feels like I'm not a good leader at all. Even if Felix and the youngest Jeongin trying to comfort me trying to tell that I'm the best of all, my heart's still bleeding sadly.

I just sighed in defeat while still trying to write some lyrics on my notepad when Jisung and Changbin informed me that they're going out for a while to buy some groceries and our lunch which I just nodded as a response before waving at them a goodbye and going back to my pad when suddenly Hyunjin's pale figure lying on the hospital bed connected with scary big tubes everywhere on his body pictured in my thoughts. My hands began to tremble again in anxiety. I tried to shook my head to ignore my thoughts and just closed my eyes to get hopefully some short rest but when I closed my eyes my lover's parents figure seen in my vision and keep shouting or blaming me from what happened to Hyunjin. I gasped and sit straightly while tears began to build up in my eyes. I wiped my eyes furiously before smacking my forehead on the table harshly to knocked me up to the reality.