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My pretty boy,

I understand things are hard right now, and i hope that you know your feelings are valid. they always have been and they always will be. But please don't be sad, i wish i could just give you the biggest hug right now. you have never deserved half the shit that you have been put through, i wish i could just take away all of your pain forever.

I'm so sorry if i have done anything that has upset you, it has never once been my intention to hurt you. I'm always gonna be here for you no matter what. You're my person and i love you more than you know.

You're the strongest person i have ever met, no matter what happens you're always able to get through it, even some of the hardest things that i don't think i could ever get through, you still manage to push through. You have no idea how much i absolutely adore you, i know i tell you all the time how much i love you but i don't think you actually know how much i do.

I thought i would just tell you some of the reasons that i love you, in hopes that this will some what make you a bit happier right now.

1. i love you because you're kind

2. i love you because you're creative

3. i love you because you're smart

4. i love you because you always look out for other people

5. i love you because i can be myself when im with you

6. i love you because you've never given up on me

7. i love you because you're always here for me

8. i love you because you're beyond adorable

9. i love you because you tell me about your dreams

10. i love you because you tell me stories from your childhood

11. i love you because you tell me about your day

12. i love you because you're you

13. i love you because you can tell me things you don't tell other people

14. i love you because you support me

15. i love you because you listen

16. i love you because you tell me things that make you happy

17. i love you because you reassure me

18. i love you because you're here with me

19. i love you because even though we have been through some of the hardest things, we've been able to come back better than ever

20. i love you because you're unlike anyone else i have ever met

21. i love you because you're hilarious

22. i love you because we have so much in common

23. i love you because we have conversations about the most random things

24. i love you because you've done so many things for me

25. i love you because every love song i listen to reminds me of you

26. i love you because our music taste is like exactly the same

27. i love you because you're not only my boyfriend, but also my best friend

28. i love you because you don't make fun of me for my interests

29. i love you because we share every squishmallow ever made we're #parents

30. i love you because you tell your friends about me

31. i love you because you tell your family about me

32. i love you because you go out of your way to make me things

33. i love you because you send me photos of dora ;)

34. i love you because you're always drawing me hearts

35. i love you because you tell me about your interests

36. i love you because you give me advice

37. i love you because you calm me down

38. i love you because when we paint our nails we match each other

39. i love you because you ask me silly questions

40. i love you because you tease me over how cringe i was on msp

41. i love you because you're cringe

42. i love you because you're understanding

43. i love you because you mean so much to me

44. i love you because you're my little weirdo

45. i love you because you made a wallpaper for me with sabrina

46. i love you because you send me things that make you think of me

47. i love you because you post about me

48. i love you because you're always looking out for me

49. i love you because you tell me when i'm in the wrong

50. i love you because you watch movies / TV shows / youtube with me

51. i love you because you make me a better person

52. i love you because you respect my boundaries

53. i love you because you ALWAYS make me laugh

54. i love you because you're the coolest person everrrrr

55. i love you because you trust me

56. i love you because you're reliable

57. i love you because you ask me if i have eaten

58. i love you because you write the sweetest messages

59. i love you because you love me

60. i love you because you're my favourite person

I honestly could go on for days about how much i love you, this isn't even all the reasons. I hope that you feel a little bit better, or even just managed to crack a smile. Please let me know if i can do anything to help you right now, i'm always here to listen and i will always try my best to help you whenever i can. I know that crying sometimes helps you though, so maybe try that my love.

And because Niall makes everything better (i'm sorry for choosing Niall when we played 36 questions btw..) have a picture of Niall :)