Only for you

Chapter 14

Chapter 14

I have been many things uptil now- things that mostly center around the single five lettered word ‘bitch’. Maybe this was the reason why I never had many friends, because I had issues. Deep, fucked up issues and when I had made of the first friends in almost eight years, they did not turn out to be what I expected them to be.

They had issues too.

Fucked up deep issues.

And so maybe this was the reason why I felt something that was vaguely familiar to me, vaugely familiar as compared to the Brooke that had a cold heart and an equally cold, bitch exterior.

Compassion.

I felt compassion for someone whom I used to call my best friend a few hours back. Someone who had hurt me more than anyone had before, because I made myself vulnerable to them.

And as I looked at the girl who still is one of the most important persons in my life, I realized with a heavy heart, that I felt compassion for her. This was not something that the new Brooke should feel. She was a bitch. Cut that, the biggest bitch in the world.

And that scared the shit out of me.

“ Brooke…” I looked at Amanda with her quivering lips and tears falling down her rosy cheeks. Her face was the perfect mask of guilt.

I sighed loudly and risked a glance at Bryan who was inching slowly away from us.

“ What do you want Amanda?” My voice was tired, exasperated with well masked anger and it seemed as if she understood it because she fliched back.

“I…I-“

“ I what?” I hissed  at her.

“ Brooke please-“

“ Stop whining! Please! What more can you guys want from me? Why are you here? You made it clear that you do not want to be seen with a slut like me right?”

“ Brooke please I never meant-“

“ Never meant to act like a bitch. Well you did. Hoorah Amanda Brown. You won!”

“ Brooke please just listen to her once.” I glared at Bryan who immediately shut up.

“ You!” I pointed my finger at Bryan.

“ You stay out of this! You have done enough. No need to be her lapdog anymore.”

“ Brooke!” Amanda gasped as I looked at her once more.

“ Well I better go.” I smiled at her, a tight strained smile and started to walk away from my two companions before a hand stopped me.

“ Oh no you don’t.” I whipped back to look at Bryan.

“ Let me go Bryan.”

“ No”. His tone was not hesitant and strong. It wavered my decision for a few miniseconds and I internally scolded myself for acting so selfish.

“ Let me fucking go now.” I hissed, my eyes bloodshot. It wasn’t words coming out of my mouth but venom and Amanda started whimpering again.

“ No.” His voice was calm, too much calm, and it seemed to break my carefully woven wall of patience.

“ Bryan! Let me go!”

“ No! Not until you listen to us goddamnit!”

I gasped as he shouted, and quickly averted my eyes from his rage filled ones. His grip on my arm was tight, painfully so. And I struggled to wrench my arm out of his.