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Art cr; @/sami_jen on Twitter!!

Anyway,, as you can tell I took an longass hiatus which wasn't even planned but I couldn't get myself to write something. The motivation was just gone :")
But I managed to get myself writing something now so enjoy <3
It's modern setting btw!

Zhongli PoV;

It was morning. A wonderful sunny morning. But something just wasn't really right today. A certain ginger wasn't laying next to me today's morning. Perhaps he was already at work? Was I sleeping for so long? I looked at my phone. It wasn't even that late and Childe didn't texted me either..
I stood up and walked down to the kitchen.
I sighed. Mornings like this are always so depressing.
It just feels wrong.
I made myself some tea to wake up properly.
Maybe someone called in sick at work so he needed to get up early today, but he would've texted me about it.
Shaking my head I just went to the bathroom to get myself ready for the day. After that I started to clean our flat.
It's not the biggest flat since we didn't wanted something that big.
Something small and nice for just the two of us was perfect.
After I cleaned our flat, I made myself comfortable in the living room looking at my phone screen again.
Still no messages and Childe should be home soon as well.
Shrugging it off I turned the TV on and watched some Netflix.
Hours passed and it was already noon.
Time flies fast when you get yourself busy... but the irritating part is there's still no Childe..
Maybe he works overtime?
But he already did worked overtime this week twice...
Getting up from the sofa I made my way to the kitchen to cook dinner for the two of us just to realise I'm actually eating all by myself tonight..

Slightly disappointed that I needed to eat all by myself again I got ready to go to bed, cuddling up against the pillow I closed my eyes.
Something about him just leaving this morning without saying anything and the fact that he works overtime again makes me feel odd, just as he's trying to avoid me or something. Or perhaps I'm just overreacting?
I shouldn't think about that right now.
Dozing off I heard the front door got closed. Some minutes passed then when I suddenly had someone laying next to me cuddling up to me.

"Where were you all day?" I asked.

I then realised the strong scent of alcohol and I sighed.

"Were you drinking again at Angel's Share?"

He knew how much I despised his drinking problem. And he told me he stopped.
Guess old habits die hard.

"Mhh, sorry Baby, didn't planned staying that long there" he just said.

I've ignored it and tried to doze off again, which surprisingly happened really fast.

The very next morning I woke up alone, again.
So I basically did the same routine from yesterday.
And this went on the whole last week.

Childe started to even distance himself even more from me.
And I started to overthink again.
I even told him if he got someone new or would find someone new it would be okay but he always told me there's no one new and he would just love me.
I tried to believe it, as much as I could.
But it was hard, really hard when he gave me the feeling that he wouldn't love me.

Another week passed and we even stopped talking at some point.

Childe had a day off and we both were home but soon I left him alone because it was time to buy groceries again.
I didn't even cared to ask him to come with me when I already knew he would tell me he was busy.
Busy my ass, he was just on his phone talking to someone.