Jealousy - Bucky x OC

"𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶, 𝘣𝘦𝘢𝘶𝘵𝘪𝘧𝘶𝘭"

Bucky's POV - The Same Day

God, I hated crying in front of her but I couldn't help it "the strongest man in my life yeah" she smiles with a tear running down her cheek.

I felt like a monster, and she knew what I was feeling. She knew that I hated crying like this in front of her but I just couldn't help it. Why would she even kiss me? I'm a total monster.

The feeling of her lips lingered on my cheek almost as if it was a bandage healing my wounds, my tears slowly came out one by one, left cheek right cheek, I wiped the one stream of water on her cheek "don't cry my dear" I smile to her.

We both hated seeing each other upset "ok I'll stop crying if you stop" she sniffled eventually I stopped crying and she wiped my tears placing both of her hands on my cheek replacing the lingering feeling of her kiss.

"see you are strong" she chuckle, god she was beautiful she always has been. I always thought I'd come back after the war and tell her I loved her but I never got to it. I died.

I never felt the same since then, but I always got that familiar feeling of being in love when I was with her, the constant nagging each other and me saving her from some man that she didn't like. Her taking me out places and me protecting her as if she was my wife.

I always thought I'd come back and marry her but I didn't get the chance.

"just for you, beautiful" I smile and her cheeks go red and I kiss her, it seemed to be a daily thing now I mean two days in a row three times. The thought of being a monster was pushed to the back of my head from the moment her lips touched mine.

We pull away and she chuckles "you know you are the only man able to call me that and it would melt me" she said innocently, of course, it was me. I don't know why I had all of these jealousy issues if I knew it was me all along.

"ew I need to shower, stay here or don't actually you shower too because you know" she says looking at my clothes and I nod going for a shower "I'm coming back" I yell before I close the door.

My mind had cleared from the moment our lips touched, it was only her. It's not like my mind wasn't always on her before but it's extra now.

The memories of when I was in love with her in the thirties and forties. Going into war loving her and she was the only thing on my mind from the age of 17 to 28. Dying at 28 definitely did affect me but I woke up thinking about her.

After my shower, I walk back to her room and open the door without answering and she looked at me and smiled walking up to me straightening up my hair "you look fresh" she smiles and I squeeze her cheeks with my right hand "as do you miss hangover" I chuckle remembering last night.

"oh god don't tell me about it I kissed you last night" she said going to sit on her bed and I nod chuckling going to sit next to her and she grabs the note out "Bucky marry me please" I say imitating her and she looks down disappointed in herself.

"I enjoyed it" I laugh "Oh wow I'm glad you did cause it was the truth" she said sarcastically and I chuckle, "would you consider it like before the war would you have actually considered marrying me?" the thought had crossed my mind pre-war.

"Yeah I did" she chuckles nervously and I look her in her eyes, I'm such a fool for her I wouldn't be able to explain anything if I was just looking at her.

"Before the war and after" She whispered and my eyes go to her lips, her lips were perfect "then you died and I went into a depressive state" she cleared her throat making me look into her eyes again "depressive?" I ask her, I've never known her to be more than upset.

"Your mother had to help me for a long time, so did Steve and your sister but mainly your mother god I was so broken when you left I basically slept in your bed for a year or two imagine god I was 26" She chuckled and I knew she was about to tear up. 

I kiss her cheek "its like you were in love with me" I tease her "oh I was it would have been 11 years" she smiles, I could have asked her to marry me and we could have ran away together before I even left for war.

"but you couldn't take a hint and ask me out" she hit my arm "ouch" I laugh at her "you were stubborn back in the days doll I couldn't just ask you like I could now" it made me think, was she in love with me now like she was back then?

I sure did hope so because I definitely was still in love with her, I mean I admitted that I was jealous to myself because of her. I redeveloped my whole life for her so I sure do hope that she feels the same way as me.

I admit it I'm Jealous and In Love... again.