Im sorry, I screwed up

Five

While JJ helped Michael make the frosting, Emily and Henry ate the cake batter. They wanted to see how much they could eat before JJ noticed. Emily only had a cupcake tin, so they went from 24 cupcakes to 22 before she looked up.

"You are both going to be so sick. I don't want to have to take care of you." She complained, throwing a towel at Emily. Emily winked at Michael and he ate a ton of frosting.

JJ dropped her jaw and looked between the three. "I have been betrayed and it's your fault." She said, pointing at Emily. After finally getting them in the oven, they sat down and settled in a movie.

JJ picked Some Kind of Wonderful. It was a movie she's watched since she was younger. She always loved watching Lea Thompson. Within 15 minutes the boys fell asleep.

Henry was wrapped around JJ while Michael laid across them all. When the timer buzzed, Emily took out the dessert and went right back to the couch.

JJ got lost in the movie until she heard a snore. She looked over and found Emily asleep. JJ desperately wanted to stay like this forever. The boys asleep, Emily asleep, together.

She sank into the couch and just took it all in. She closed her eyes for a second and when she opened they were decorating the cupcakes.
"We didn't want to wake you so we started decorating. But there are still some the need sprinkles." Emily said.

She helped JJ stand and the four of them decorated the messed up cupcakes. They weren't the prettiest but it was needed. Emily needed the surprise.

Every one was complete with frosting and colorful sprinkles. JJ passed a cupcake to each of them and they all took a bite.

Unfortunately, Emily and Henry forgot to add the oil. JJ froze when she took a bite and let it fall from her mouth. Emily tried to catch it before it hit the table but missed. Henry was mimicking his mom but Emily managed to catch his.

Each piece ended up in the trash along with the rest of the cupcakes. Emily wanted to use them to prank the team, but JJ said no.

"I just think it would've funny to see Luke try to say something nice about them." She tried saying. JJ was laughing when her phone rang. Will.

"Hey just seeing when you were heading home. Don't drive home too late." He said over the phone. "Shit I didn't realize it's late. We'll be home soon." JJ said, rubbing her head.

Emily looked at the clock and felt bad. It was       9 pm and she had kept them here all day. She carried a sleeping Michael to the car and gave JJ a goodbye hug.

Emily stood on the doorstep and waved as the drove away. She waited until the car turned the corner before she burst into tears. It was nice spending the day with them, just them.

Maybe if Emily had been honest with herself, she could've had it for herself. Having JJ, having the boys, having the perfect life.

She knew she loved JJ since the moment she saw her, the moment she walked into Hotch's office. She knew she loved JJ when she told her to kiss Will. Maybe if she didn't, this wouldn't have happened.

She didn't realize JJ was doing the same. One boy was asleep, the other had headphones in. JJ silently cried the whole ride home. She wanted to spend everyday with Emily.

But it was too late now. Now she was married. Now she had kids. There was no way she would be able to have it all.

Emily went back inside and picked up her phone. There was one person she could call. One person that could maker his all better.

"Can you come over and just sit with me?" She asked.