Im sorry, I screwed up

Six

"Of course my darling. I will be there faster than a rocket." Penelope said. Emily sat on her bed frozen until she heard someone in the house. She had given Pen a house key so she wasn't worried.

Penelope burst through the door and Emily reached out her arms. Penelope ran over and joined Emily on the bed. She hugged her tight and waited for her to talk.

"It's about JJ isn't it?" She asked. Emily pulled back and looked at her. "Come on. It's me. I've always known." Penelope added.

"Why do I feel like this? She is married with children. There is nothing I can do about it. I'm too late." Emily cried. They sat in silence for a little bit.

The one thing Penelope cared about was what Emily said. She never said JJ didn't love her back. The whole team knew Emily and JJ loved each other. Even when Gideon was there.

Emily didn't know that JJ had done the same thing, cry to Penelope. The boys were out of town and she had received the same call. She brought JJ Cheetos and vodka.

Penelope desperately wanted to tell the pair what happened. But instead she sat in silence. She let Emily talk until she calmed down and it worked. After a couple minutes, Emily was able to compose herself.

JJ on the other hand could not. She had two sleeping boys in the backseat and stopped in a parking lot to cry. The car was parked for 20 minutes before she left.

When she got home, Will ran out and helped move the boys. He didn't mention JJ crying until the boys were in bed.

"You okay?" He asked. The only thing she could say was "I'm fine." She sat on their bed and hugged her knees. "No I'm not." She groaned. "I'm not fine Will. I have to tell you something."

She waited for him to sit down before continuing. "When Reid and I were in that bank, I had to confess something. Something I had never told anyone." She could tell he want catching on and took a breath.

"I told Spence that I had always loved him. But it wasn't true about him. I imagined someone else was sitting there." She bit her lip and looked down.

"Who did you imagine Jen?" He asked. When she didn't answer he knew. "Emily." JJ looked up and nodded.

"I'm so sorry." She held her head and kept talking. "I tried to push the feelings down but I couldn't. And I can't do it anymore. I'm so exhausted from keeping this inside. I give up."

Will sat silent and thought about it. "I'm going to stay with a friend for a couple days. Don't try calling or anything." He stated before walking out the door.

"Will, please no. Don't leave. We can talk about it. Please." JJ begged. She yelled his name as the door shut. She sat in bed crying until someone opened the door. It was Henry.

"Hey kid. What are you doing out of bed?" JJ said, putting on a smile. He jumped on the bed and she pulled him over.

"I just wanted to make sure you were okay." Henry said. JJ wrapped her arms around him and turned off the light.

Henry fell asleep instantly but JJ couldn't. She kept thinking about what she did. Not only did she mess up her life, she messed up Wills and the boys.

In the morning she dropped the boys at school and went to work. This was how it was going to be for a while. She told the boys Will had to work so they may have to stay with her mom.

When she got the the BAU, she kept it a secret. Too bad she was surrounded by profilers