She was struggling, she still is.
Now she has moved away, hoping to get a fresh start and forget about what happened last year but things change when that one person appears again, however this time he's her boss, he's so much older. Oh and he has...
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Why did I do that, there is no meeting. I don't even know what I'm going to do in the so called meeting. God I just wanted to talk to her, but me being the person I am couldn't even do that right without fucking up. And besides I'm married.
May as well not be, god knows what she's been doing back home.
I am outside my house still in my car, her perfume still lingers even thought she was in for a short while, I can't deny that I was driving slower than usual, she just seems to grab my attention and I lose any common sense I had to start with.
Yes it's probably weird how I act around her and what I think I feel because we have only met once before and that night made me look at my life at whole different perspective, she was suffering so much more than I was and yet I was complaining about my life.
She still seems to be the exact same person that I met a year ago, but this time she has this glow about her, the way she smiles over little things, or how when I have noticed her taking to a colleague about something she seems so enthusiastic about whatever she or the other person is saying and her eyes. God those eyes, when she looks up at me with them I feel like I am the most important person in the world.
But she's young, I can tell without even asking her I've recently turned 38 and she's probably in her early twenties or something. I shouldn't be thinking about her the way I am right now, cancelling this so called meeting is probably the better option right now but I can't, I want to know her, what she like, what she doesn't like. How she is doing.
Giving up, I lay my head on the steering wheel and stay there for a bit longer before I head back in and pay the babysitter, I only went to the pub to see if she showed up. How pathetic I am a grown ass man for Christ sake and she is a child.
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I wake Amy up and help her get dressed, then make her breakfast. We both sit eating food with cartoons on waiting for my mum to come over so she can watch over while I work, I've been looking into schools to get her into but I can't find the right one. There is no way she is going back to her mother not after she tried shipping her off to boarding school.
The front door opens and I can hear my mum take her shoes off.
"Shaun, Amy I am here to save the day" she says waking into the living room.
"Grandma!" Amy squeals as she jumps off of the sofa and running into my mothers arms.
"Hello princess, has daddy already fed you?" She asks.
"Yes! He made me pink pancakes" I love seeing her smile it's the best feeling in the world.
Amy gets back onto the sofa and continues watching tv, whilst I go an talk to my mum.
