She was struggling, she still is.
Now she has moved away, hoping to get a fresh start and forget about what happened last year but things change when that one person appears again, however this time he's her boss, he's so much older. Oh and he has...
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"Alright I'm going shopping, be good you two!" I shout as I'm leaving the apartment.
I don't even think they are awake yet to be honest. I mean it's only 9:30 in the morning on a Saturday can't blame them to be fair.
Since Lucy is still asleep I'm going to have to walk to the shops instead, a good excuse to clear my head and maybe not buy to much as I'll have to care it all back home.
I actually have a driving test in a couple of weeks so fingers crossed I pass, save up for a car and boom I no longer need to rely on Lucy driving me everywhere.
I carry on waking for another ten minutes until I arrive but the whole time it's as if someone is following me. I mean many people go to this shop so they might not be following me.
Well that until I heard my name being shouted. "Lily!" The voice says.
I turn around and I am met with someone I wished I'd never have to see again.
"What are you doing here?" I ask in a calm tone.
"Watch it. I don't know who you think you are but he is MY son not yours, you left this family we don't want you so leave him alone or I swear you will wish you were never born." My mum says in a hushed tone, I am stood frozen unable to speak a damn word.
"That's it you bitch stay quite, you ruined this family, you made your dad leave me. You just couldn't do anything right could you. God knows how you will ever live a life when all you do is let people down, look at your poor brother how do you think he feels knowing his sister abandoned him. Huh?" She goes on again.
"Stop, you know that's not true, I-i never did anything, I did everything I was told but it was never good enough. I needed help, I was drowning and all you cared was wether or not the dishes were done, I wanted to end it and you weren't there for me. You never protected me like a parent should instead you made me feel small, unloved a slave." At this point tears are rolling down my face, I am unable to hide my emotions at this point, every walk I had built up came crumbling down.
I was back to square one.
"Well maybe you should have ended it all, you would have done us all a favour." Then she walks away leaving me completely and utterly shattered.
My head hurts, my everything hurts.
Completely forgetting I am in public I manage to go down an ally way and collapse on my knees, my breathe is caught again and I can't breathe, I can't hear anything it's like I am not here properly.
I see a figure kneeling down in-front of my trying to say something but I can't hear them.
"Lily" I hear someone say over and over again.
"Come one breathe, calm down" the voice says again.
I am looking around frantically, trying to see who is speaking and I met with them blue eyes again.
I start to loose my breath again seeing that it is him who has seen my in this awful state.
"Shhh, it's alright I've got you. Just relax please." He pulls me to his chest, stroking the top of my head.
I begin focusing on his heart beat to try and calm my self, but even his is beating quite quickly.
After a few moments of him whispering things in my ear and comforting me I begging to calm down. I try and get back up but instead his grip holds me still not allowing me to move.
"Are you alright now?" He's asks quietly.
"I-yes" I nod knowing it's a complete lie.
"Please don't lie to me" Shaun holds my face with his hands stoking my cheek.
"I'm sorry." My eyes stare back into his.
"Don't apologise, come on let me take you home." He stands holding my hand so I come up with him.
"I erm, can you not take me home please I don't want them to see me like this." They can't see me like this again, especially Xander it would break him.
"Okay, would it be okay if you go to mine, it's just I don't want you alone when you are like this." He explains still holding my hand.
"Yes that's fine." I reply.
We begging waking to his car his hand still in line occasionally rubbing his thumb on the side of my hand.
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We make it to his house and the journey there was quite neither of us spoke just the radio playing in the background.
He leads me to the door and opens it allowing me to go in, my eyes scan the room as soon as I walk in. This is strange, I am in his house.
I notice a few children toys laying around, and is he notices where my eyes have gone to he jumps in to explain.
"My daughter, she is at her grandmas so don't worry no children will be jumping out at you." He chuckles at the last part.
"You have a daughter?" stupid questing Lily he just said he did.
"I- yes I do" he says picking up a few of her toys.
"I'm sorry I should go then" god damn it of course he has a family, what will they think if they see me, I begin to leave when he grabs my wrist to stop me.
"No stay, it's fine. I'm not with her mother, so if that's what you are worried about then you don't need to be." I still should leave but parts of me doesn't want to.
"Okay" he smiles at my response and leads me to the living room.
"You can sit here, get comfortable and I will make you a drink. Okay?" He asked even though it sounded more like a demand.
"Okay" I say again, and sit on his sofa.
He takes a while in the kitchen, but my eyes begin to feel heavy and sleep washes over me. I hear someone faintly heading towards me and warmth covers me.
I fall asleep forgetting where I am and who I am with.
