PSYCHO LOVE- RENHYUCK/HYUCKREN

5

After last night Jeno and Jaemin recommended that I stay home for a while, and they are right. I feel horrible about last night. I had a nightmare last night about all of the things I've done. Whenever I get like that I feel scared, but for all the wrong reason. It's like I'm two different people. The voice in my head is encouraging me to act on my thoughts, the voice in my head is craving blood, the voice in my head wants Renjun. I fear that I won't be able to stop.

It's 1:00 in the afternoon and I haven't done anything all day, and I hate that. I suddenly remember the meeting that I had with that lady. I quickly go to my room and search through my bag.

"I'm sure I put it in here," I said as I searched my bag. I continue to search my bag and the recorder isn't in there at all.

"What the hell," I say scratching my head confused. I look around my room to see if I dropped it somewhere, I couldn't find it at all. I never lose things, this is very unlike me.

"Where the hell did it go," I say as I walk to the guest bedrooms, searching in there. All I found was Milky lying on the bed.

"Milky, you know you can't be in here," I say as I guide him out of the room and play with him for a little bit. After playing with Milky I go to my room and pull out my laptop and go to the voice files, I also save an extra copy in case things like this happen, but I still don't understand where my recorder disappeared to. I click on the file and go over everything she says.

"So I'm looking for someone who is Chinese?" I ask out loud to no one. I also can't stop thinking about the fact that the CHU killer knew that the lady was talking to me, a detective. This means the killer was either watching the lady or watching me and I prefer the first one. There's also no reason why the CHU killer would be watching me. I've done nothing to draw his attention.

"I'm also looking for a specific ringtone, which is going to be hard," I say leaning back on my couch when I feel something hard on my back. I turn around and dig through the cushions and pull out my recorder.

"Hmm, how did this get here?" I say clicking on the play button noticing that all my recorded messages are completely gone. I look around the room scared because how the hell did they all get deleted.

"What the hell," I say plugging it up to my computer to see when it was deleted. To my surprise, it says last night. Who the hell was in my house? I can't think of anyone other than my company.

Me:
Hey did you guys touch my recorder last night?

Jeno:
You're talking about the one for work?

Me:
Yeah, all of my recordings are deleted.

Jeno:
Well, it wasn't me. Jaemin's in the shower I'll ask him once he gets out.

Me:
Should I ask the others, we just met and I don't want to sound accusatory.

Jeno:
I wouldn't, maybe you deleted them by accident.

Me:
Maybe

Jeno:
I'll still ask Jaemin, also we're stopping by later to talk with you.

Me:
Ok

After talking with Jeno I feel a little nervous. They must think that I'm going to do something bad again but I promise I won't. I still don't understand how my recordings got deleted though. Since the CHU killer has killed again everything has been weird, I don't even feel safe in my own home. Maybe I should put up some surveillance.