Transitions of a lost soul

(Chapter 13: My new obsession)

I went into my room and fell back onto my bed....his lips felt so good next to mine and I wanted to reverse time just to feel them again. I wanted to text him and tell him to come and be here for the night, to feel his touch. "Pump your brakes Jar...you don't wanna end up in another fucked up situation..let it flow naturally." I said to myself. I get up to go into the shower and get ready for bed. *Ding* my phone went off and I checked to see what it was: " I made it home safely. I really enjoyed my time with you tonight...definitely enjoyed that kiss even more. Hope we can set up another date soon 😊 goodnight Jar ❤️". I texted him back telling him the same thing and set my phone onto my dresser. The butterflies started to flutter in my stomach and I started to blush.

"Yeah I need to get some rest before I stay up making up romantic scenarios in my head." I laughed to myself and went to bed to sleep. The whole night felt like a huge cluster of dreams happening back to back about Chris and every single one felt so real. I felt myself touching every part of my body, though in my head Chris was the one touching me. How can I fall so hard for a man I barely knew? Maybe it's because it reminded me of how Brandon used to be...but better. My night was filled with nothing but imaginary lust and I loved it.

The morning came and It felt like the best sleep I've had in a long time. I went into my bathroom and turned on the light to look into the mirror. I looked at myself in a daze and slowly smiled. " I need to get closer to him..I shouldn't feel this way about him unless there's a reason for it." Today was one of those chill inside the house days, especially since it was raining. I made some ginger orange tea and turned on my Netflix to watch reruns of True Blood. I decided to text Chris in the midst of watching my show : "Hey. Was thinking about you, hope you're doing okay." I made sure my ringer was up high, I didn't want to miss a single message once he texted back.

Not even 5 seconds later my phone dings: "Hey Jar ❤️ I'm doing fine, thinking about you too..mind if I can come see you today?" My heart dropped after I read the text. I texted him that he could and started to clean up my house like a mad woman. I washed up again and even shaved every part of my body...I felt like Bella when she was getting ready for her honeymoon with Edward. I curled my hair into bouncy waves, threw on an oversized gray sweater and put on my knee high black and orange striped socks to go with it. 1 hour later I hear a knock on my door. "This is it...grab your controller and get ready to play." I said to myself.