Transitions of a lost soul

(Chapter 29: Runaway...)

I called all my friends and told them everything the minute I got home. I didn't know what to do, what to say. I told them all to not worry about me and that I was gonna figure out what I was going to do to stay undetected. I took the number one piece of evidence so I doubt anything would be linked to me...at least I hoped that would be the case. I took off all my clothes and put them in a box. Some of Chris's blood got on them and I needed to get rid of them. I went back out to a quiet abandoned spot with the box and a box of matches and proceeded to burn it.

It took a while for it to burn, but I stayed there until it was done. I felt like a serial killer on the run, though I knew I wasn't. If someone told me I would have to experience this in life, I would've laughed in their face and tell them to go fuck themselves. I felt like I was in a movie that had no ending. I go back home to sit down and think. "Maybe I'll stay at a hotel for a couple of days, I need to stay hidden just in case something happens. So I packed up two luggages and took myself to a hotel 2 hours away from where I lived. This needed to blow over and I wasn't going to risk anything.

I stayed there for a week and nothing came about...No phone calls, no messages. I didn't get a knock on my door from any authorities, not even a link back from anyone. That's when I knew, I was safe and in the clear to go back home. My friends checked on me the whole time I was in hiding which somewhat kept me in higher spirits. Though I was scared, I broke down the whole time over Liza. I barely ate anything nor slept. I had to accept the fact that she was really gone. Chris took not just one but two people from me, Liza was my family just like the rest of the group. She was my other half because I knew her longer, she's seen me go through it all and was there to catch me when I fall.

I wanted to reverse time so badly, I needed her here with me. This felt so unfair to me...but I know there's nothing I can do about it. I don't even think I can stomach the idea of going to her funeral and watching her get buried...that's if they even find her. I text my friends and asked them to put a memorial for her once everything dies down. They all agreed and decided to do it near her home instead. She lived alone so she had no family around where she lived. We waited two weeks before we decided to do it, just in case they did find her...but nothing appeared.

It was Wednesday morning when we all decided to go to her home. We walked to the backyard to start the memorial. Lannah and Jacob were too distraught to say anything so I did. " My dear sweet Liza, I hate that we even have to do this for you..but I'm happy and blessed for my years of friendship with you. You were my everything, my sister, my yang. It hurts to know that I won't hear that bubbly voice ever again, to see you do that weird dance to make me laugh whenever I was upset....We won't be able to go to the bar without you there, it just won't feel the same. I love you, we all love you dearly...rest peacefully my angel." I put my roses down onto the grass, slowly breaking down in the process. I crouched there for a minute crying my eyes out. I feel Lannah and Jacob holding me as we all cried together.

The only positive thing about this, though it resulted in her losing her life behind it...She saved me from Chris and I was able to rid him from me for good. Guess you have to take a loss in order to feel peace.