ASSIMILATE

i wish

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"What? It was weird kissing in front of a stuffed bear!" You pressed X on the controller when your character was under a bridge again.

"Stop doing that,"

"Stop being so demanding and say please," you kept jumping under the bridge anyway and he took your controller and just stared at you.

"Why're you so defiant all the time?" He turned the game off and waited for you to answer.

"Because you never say please," you crossed your arms over your chest at his genuine curiosity.

"That's fair. So I have a question,"

"Mhm?"

"Did anyone say anything to you? After you and I...
"split" I guess," he looked like he was anticipating a really bad answer.

"Not that I remember...why?"

"No reason...just asking,"

"I feel like there's something you're not telling me again and I really hate it when you do that."

"I'm not hiding anything." He assured and started looking at his phone.

You just stared at him looking at his phone and waited for him to say something, you realized he had yet to say anything about his mom. You could even smell a bit of the weed off of him, you still didn't say anything about it because you knew he was dealing with a lot. He was dealing with a lot mentally too so you just did your best not to pry, maybe he was just acting weird because of it?

His eyes were stuck on his screen and yours were glued to him, you just waited for that moment of reassurance he used to give you. Even if it was a lie, after he cried into your chest you weren't even sure if he was okay.

Would he ever be okay? He was a mama's boy and that was obvious, he never mentioned his sad so neither did you. Carla had something to say to you before she passed and you desperately wondered what she had to say, maybe it had to do with Eren?

Your biggest fear was that he changed while he was gone, he very obviously did but you wanted to believe that the only thing that changed about him was his use of weed. He was back to wearing jackets again, even inside when the heat was on...you still didn't ask but you wanted to. You wanted to so badly.

"What...?" He looked up from his phone at you and you were brought back to the present reality.

"Oh. Nothing...I just remembered I have finals to study for...I'll text-or, see you later." You stood up from the couch in a containment of awkward feelings and he looked a little confused by your sudden movement too.

"Oh. Alright," he went back to his phone and you walked to the door.

He didn't offer to walk you back.

He always walked you back and when he didn't he just offered you his bed. He didn't this time, he continued to scroll on his phone with those low red eyes.

You walked out the door and shut it behind you before walking down the hall. You wanted to talk to Mikasa but you weren't sure if she was back yet, it was only 9 and you knew Connie and Armin would probably have her out late.

EREN POV:

I thought maybe if I pretended that things would go back to normal, I'd feel normal again. I didn't. I think y/n picked up on that but I wasn't sure so I didn't want to stir up anything if it was nothing.

The worst part about my life right now is I'm watching everything happen through a mirror. I'm watching and over-analyzing every choice I make, I'm watching myself get worse. It just won't stop.