It's Us [Jakehoon]

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Confirm Sunghoon lips was so soft that Jake thought. There lips was just press to each other and not moving but it gives Jake butterfly on his stomach. He shiver, feeling the lips of the younger. The feeling of melting. He slowly close his eye as Sunghoon pull him more close deepening the kiss.

But then something hit him causing him to push Sunghoon away and it's make Sunghoon starled. Jake then suddenly get up from lying and bolted out on the room. Thankfully the others didn't wake up.

Sunghoon follow Jake. He can't find Jake in the living room so he checked the kitchen still no presence of the boy. He already checked all around inside the house but he still can't find Jake then he stop on the door that slightly open. He entered thinking that Jake possibly there. When he entered it leads him to a garden he walks slowly and be amazed of the flowers although it's already dark but the light of the moon give him a chance to see the beautiful flowers and different plants.

He then saw the figured of the boy he was looking for. Jake was sitting on the bench. He slowly approached the older not making any sound so he can't disturb the boy who was just staring at nowhere. He sit beside Jake with a short distance.

"You've shouldn't do that." Jake speak after the long silent. Sunghoon look at Jake but Jake was just staring straight. Sunghoon take a long pause thinking what should he say.

"I'm not sorry I insisted the kiss and wanted to do it." Sunghoon said honestly after thinking so long.

That's then Jake look at Sunghoon with irritated face. Although part of him make him happy of what the younger said but he forced to erase it.

"You have a g-girlfriend and your girlfriend is my friend." Jake said and look away to Sunghoon. He don't know but he was hurt that it's cause him to stutter at the word that make him hurt. But he remind his self that he wanted it to that he is the one force Sunghoon to be with Bomi.

"Y-yeah your right I have a g-girlfriend" Sunghoon voice cracked. Feeling his heart being shutter.

"So that's why you shouldn't done that." He really tried so hard not to stutter. That it's make him difficult to breathe because it's like there is something was blocking his throat and the heavy feelings he has.

Sunghoon take a deep breath so he'll not cracked again. "The girlfriend that I don't have feelings."

"Are you blaming now because I forced you to date her?" Jake said in blank voice.

Sunghoon smiled in pain. "I'm not blaming you ever since because I insisted to help you and because I wanted too ..... Even you asked me to be his boyfriend because you wanted to make her happy because it's make you happy too ..... Even it's break me because I want you to be happy because I---"

Jake stood up "Stop it Sunghoon! I don't want to hear it!" He shout and cover his ear and closed his eyes tightly don't want to hear what Sunghoon wanted to say and he don't want to see Sunghoon reaction on what action he did.

Sunghoon who was starled to Jake action burst to cry already. It's hurt him to see the reaction of Jake he was ready now to confess his feelings but just seeing what Jake acted it's already cleared to him that Jake rejected him. Jake don't want him. Jake don't have feelings to him. Jake disgust about him. And probably their friendship will end now here.

Just thinking of that Sunghoon cry loudly because he can't take it anymore the pain he has he wanted it to get out but not matter how many tears came out on his eyes the pain still there.

Jake wanted to punch his self after hearing the loudly cry of the younger. He really thought that the feeling he has on Sunghoon was already vanished because he already like Bomi but just then out of nowhere his feeling comeback. He really tried hard to convince himself that maybe again, it'll just vanished again. The weird he feel. The butterfly he feel. The unexplainable feeling when he was in Sunghoon. He acted like it's was his first experiencing it but the truth is he already experience it and know what exactly it is. He just trying to be blind about what he feels. But the heart can see because love can't lie.

And deep inside he really knows that he really love the younger before and even now. No matter how tried to forget and buried his feelings. But it's just like you want to live but you try to hold your breath. That's how much he love Sunghoon that it's so suffocating.

Sunghoon stood up and he slowly turned away. He can't bear it anymore so he slowly left with a broken heart.

Jake watch Sunghoon left now or never if he don't chase Sunghoon will he be happy? Will he let go of the man he loves or will he fight? Can he even let go? Can he bear it without him in his life? Can he bear not to see him? Can he even live his life? Can he be happy again without him? Can he even bear to see the man he love with someone else? Can he even live without Sunghoon in his life?

All that question was lingering on his mind. And Jake answered to that question is no he'll fight his love for that man. He chased after Sunghoon who hadn't gone far yet.

He hugged Sunghoon back so tight.

Sunghoon who was surprised got froze.

"Sunghoon I'm sorry .... I didn't mean to hurt you .... I'm just scared." 

Sunghoon turn to face Jake he then cupped the face of the older using his thumb finger he wiped the tears that fall on his cheek.

"What do you mean?" Sunghoon asked confused but hoping.

Jake look at Sunghoon teary eyes. "I-I l-love you." He confess almost a whisper. Sunghoon seemed deaf to what Jake said.

"What? Say it again" Sunghoon said hoping that what he heard was true.

Jake take the hands of Sunghoon that was still place on his face. He hold Sunghoon hands tightly and locked his eyes on their hand.

"I've been holding this for so long...." Then he looked up to stare again at Sunghoon eye. He love it when he look at his eye.

"I love you Sunghoon. I love you very much now and then..."

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