Roses Can't Heal My Everlasting Wounds

|"Tune Dard Diye hai Inte..Ambar Me Sitaare Jitne"|

Personal Preference - Play Qismat Song while reading

Continuing from the previous part-
Sid and Monami were punching the Boxing Bag furiously, the clothes tied around their hands were in shreds. The song Qismat was playing in the background on a bluetooth speaker. They were sweating badly and their Fingers and Nuckles were simply bleeding. Tears had strick down Sid and Monami's face. The flashes of everything that had happened since morning was coming infront of their eyes. Karan judging thier emotions, The call they recieved, Karan scolding them because they choked, Sanju prejudging Sid, Sanju calling Sid as Chirkut, They being given punishment without their fault, all of it. Karan and Sanju couldn't make out anything but they can clearly understand one thing, that the duo was taking out all of their frustration and emotions. Sanju's heart ached seeing Sid in such a condition. After Boxing for sometime, Monami and Sid sat or somewhat fell on the tyre with a Thud.
Monami - "I hate him Sid, I hate him" Monami said spitting out Angst and choking and crying, her face tear- stricken
Sid - "Same here bro, mujhe samjh nahi aata maine usse pyaar kaise kiya, how the hell did I propose her?!" He was Broken
Sanju felt a strange pain in her heart listening to 'how the hell did I propose her'.
Monami - "Bro tujhe toh phir bhi shayad infatuation huyi thi, mera kya?"
Karan was hell'a confused, what did Monami mean by 'mera kya', did she love someone? This though pained him by 0.000001% in some corner of his heart. Whom are they talking about?!
Sid - "Hum dono ki same halat hai, same pinch"
Saying so Sid pinched Monu lightly
Monami - "Who gives him the right to judge our emotions?!" She hit the ground once again and glass pieces spread on the floor (Thanks to the recruits) pierced her skin. Her hand bled again.
Sid - "Exactly 💯, kya bol raha tha woh, ha 'no regret ki someone sacrificed their life'. Woh aadmi Someone bol sakta hai, hum nahi."
Listening to this Saran was thinking it was probably themselves (Sanju and Karan) the duo was talking about.
Monami - "Chehre pe dikhate nahi doesn't mean we don't respect them and their sacrifices"
Sid - "We personally know ki iska anjaam kya hota hai. Didn't he mask his emotions after Bhaiya went away?! Hum chahte to bhi judge kar sakte the usko" Now Saran was sure that they themselves were being talked about.
Monami - "Humne kiya bhi, lekin iss kadr nahi"
Sid - "This day..... log har din jeete hai, hum har din marte hai, arre woh slips ko rakha Usme bhi baate suna raha tha!"
Monami - "Mujhe bohot doubt hota hai Sid, kya seriously uska aur Param Bhaiya ka khoon same hai?! There is so much difference between them!"
Sid - "Exactly Monu. Aur ek uski copy paste, Miss Misinterpretor"
Copy paste of Karan, it is Sanju then. Sanju's name, Miss Misinterpretor, WTH was that?!
Monami - "Kabhi Usme Didi ki parchayi dekhi thi, abb toh kabhi na dekh paungi" This pained Sanju. Though she wasn't clear about her feelings for Sid, but she never held any grudge for Monami. And here she hears that Monami had someday seen the reflection of her elder sister in sanju, just a second, Monami's elder sister?!?! Saran was confused, since the very beginning
Sid - "Ha, arre mai takraya tha usse subah, but I didn't mean it, Hurting Machine ke saamne On time report kara phir bhi usne baate sunayi, late report karte toh usse topic mil jaata so alag, aur tu toh alag hi late ho rahi thi" Sid said, pain stricken
Karan in his mind 'Hurting Machine, please don't tell me ye name mujhe diya hai inn dono ne'
Monami - "Ha toh Batra Ma'am, Barkha Ma'am, Bhabhi aur Miss Misinterpretor ko drop karte karte aneka tha na"
Sid - "Ha mujhe pata hai, ab mai tension mai ghuma saamne mili takraye gir gaya, aur mohtarma to kamaal hai hi, meri baat bina sune daantne lagi"
Karan and Sanju were now listening to their talks intently
Monami - " arre bro tune kabhi mujhe bina permission touch nahi kara woh Sanjana Madam Ko kya khak karega"
Though Saran knew that no matter what happens Sid always respects and cares for Monu as best friend but the line 'usse kya khaak karega' was somewhat unknown types for them.
Sid - "Ek toh ye 'Ameerzaade Bigde Aulad' ka ratta, amma bhak! Ek hai humari zindagi, haa kitne parties kari hongi puri zindagi me lekin kabhi kisi Ladki ko Galat Nazariye se nahi dekha. Mujhe log kitni gaaliyan sunate the, ki itne ameer baap ka aulad hai aur ek ladki ke saath raat tak nahi guzari?! Bhaiya ek baari humare Baap ke sath jeekar dekho pata lagega. Amma tum logo ko kyun farak padta hai mai kisi ladki ke sath raat bitaun ya nahi?! Itna hi Shauk hai toh ek baari mujhe Meri Maa ke saath, meri behen ke saath rata guzaarne ka mauka do na"
Sid said Crying
Karan (whispers silently to sanju) - "Maa aur Behen ke saath raat guzaarni hai?? Ajeeb bande hai dono, Maa ke saath jaise wakt nahi guzara kabhi aur Monami iski behen hi toh hai🙄"
Sanju - "Sirji ye dono ne ek din humao dimag ko Bhurji bana ke paros deno hai aapke saamne"
Karan slightly chuckled and then focused back to Simi.
Monami - "Toh tune kuch usse kaha kyun nahi huh?"
Sid - "Tujhe lagta hai mai uss condition me tha?! Mujhe ek to teri tension thi, upar se woh Akhrot. I wasn't at fault this time, phir bhi usne mujhe punishment di jo maine accept kiya, lekin mujhe toh mis-judge karke nikal padi woh, Sorry bolne tak ka mauka nahi diya. Bro jab maine usse 4 saal pehle propose kiya tha, tab jab usne mujhe punishments diye, I accepted them, whole heartedly, kyunki I was guilty, Bhale hi I wasn't willing to propose her, lekin 2 jaane daun pe thi! Maine usse hurt kiya tha, intentionally ho ya unintentionally, chahe woh majburi me kiya tha ya apni marzi se. Isliye Near Death experience ke list me ek number aur jod liya, aur personally, I felt I was guilty, kyunki bhale hi mai kisiki jaan bacha raha tha, maine kahi na kahi shayad usse pasand kiya tha, aur isliye maine Sab Kuch, Top-to-Toe seh liya, I was Guilty!!"
Monami - "Lekin mai jaanti hoon Sid, tune tab bhi usse choone tak ka nahi socha, sirf aur sirf woh 2 jaano pe focus kiya, jinke khaatir tune apne character pe daag tak lagwa liya"
Sid - "Lekin at the End mujhe kya sunna pada? Yahi ki Bandar jitna bhi budha ho jaye gulati maarna nahi chodta! Usne mujhe Sorry bolne ka tak mauka nahi diya." Sid said hitting the ground hard as well, and the pieces of broken glass pierced Sid's skin.Sid was breaking down every second. Sanju was feeling guilty. What did the duo mean by '2 jaane dau pe thi'?! Sid wasn't willing to propose Sanju?! This Pained Sanju's heart. And Sid accepted every punishment even without doing anything?! Sanju's head was reeling, so was Karan's. She scolded him, questioned his character, for no reason at all! Guilt was over ridding Sanju at the worst possible level.
Sid continued speaking "I personally respect her, jo infatuation tha, I totally got rid of my feelings, puri tarah se, lekin I respect her, the fact ki she is a feminist and takes a stand for herself, acchi baat hai lekin does that mean ki woh Delhi Cab Case ki tarah bina kuch sune, mujhe blame karne lage?!"
Monami - "Exactly bro, I got rid of my feelings, my........ (Tears escaped her eyes) you got rid of your feelings, emotions, all of it,, still, shouldn't she have heard😔"
What did she mean by the Silence and which words lied behind the tear drop which had escaped her eyes????
Sid - "Bro hum bhai Behen jaise hai, woh bhi hai, humara sync chalta hai, unka bhi chalta hai, bas inn dono ka humesha humare case me syncing ghotala karta hai"
Monami - " Sahi baat. Mess me....bhaiya ne pichle kuch saal kaise guzaare we know, humne puri zindagi kaise guzari, bhaiya knows, phir bhi he is the one who thinks bhaiya ne zindagi khush hokar guzaari"
Sid - "The frickin' damn, uske paas Baby thi, Faizi Sir the, Sanjana Madam thi, Sab the, Bhaiya ke paas kaun tha???"
Monami - "Koi nahi" disappointment visible and Hurt=infinity
Sid - "The Strongest Trio of 88, jisne unit me jaan di, woh khud andar se sabse bikhri huyi thi"
Monami - "And why will people from 21 give a damn to it, 21 ke majors hume koste hai aur Constables humari daat (दात/Praise/Tareef) dete hai, ajib hai yaar"
Sid - "Officers ki thodi baat hoti hai 88 walo se, lekin 88 me Sudhanshu, Aniket, Rakesh, Tiwari, Chandram aur kitne saaro ke batchmates honge."
Monami - "Sahi baat, aur ek woh iska name, Chirkut"
Sid - "Name coining me uski speciality hai lagta hai, Recruits ko namune, mujhe chirkut, aur kis kis ko, kya kya naam diye honge raam jaane"
Monami - "Speciality toh apni bhi hai, Vanar Sena, Miss Tod Phod, Khadoos Shergill, Miss Tattoo, Hurting Machine, Miss Misinterpretor, Akhrot, Kulhadi, kitne names diye hai"
Sid - "Miss Tattoo, Miss Tod Phod aur Khadoos Shergill ka name mat le, they have changed, a lot, humne unhe jaisa samjha, woh log bilkul waise nahi hai" a tear escaped his eye
Monami - "Lekin humne har name pyaar se diya hai ya unke Character ke hisaab se diya hai, disrespect karne ko nahi,"
Sid - "aur Sanjana Madam ke saath bilkul ulta hai"
Monami - "Exactly."
Sid - "Bro misjudge karne ki ek hadd hoti hai, kya ye jaante hai woh dono?"
Monami - "I don't think so bro, humne puri file complete kardi, andar ke paper bhi sort karke diye, par punishment hume hi bhugatni padi"
Sid - "Wahi toh, Humare Emotions judge karte hai, humari productivity, humari potential, hume, humare family ko tak judge kar dalenge dekh liyo"
Monami - "Woh dono ye bhi kar sakte hai, bro...humne puri zindagi me like millions of problems face kare honge lekin uski capability usse list me 5th position dilati hai"
Sid - "Humne list kab banayi?"
Monami - "Bruh, Lame Joke. Tu bhi jaanta hai woh maine flow flow me bol diya"
Sid - "Sorry, but on a serious note, woh na internet ke mean friend ki tarah behave kara"
Saran freaked out on listening 'internet ka mean friend'
Karan's Friendship, Mean?! Kab?! Kaise?!
Monami continued
Monami - "Exactly, memes ke mean friends kaise hote hai ek taraf gale milte hai doosri taraf peeth me chhura khopte hai, usne bhi kuch aisa hi kiya, pehle hume himmat di, hume Trust pe Trust karne ke able banaya phir humara hi Trust choor choor kar diya aur mujhme joh pehele self doubt tha na, usko ek naye self doubt se replace kar diya" Monami's voice was breaking
Sid - "Aur Iss Doubt ke chalte na, tu kabhi pyaar nahi kar payegi"
Monami - "I know bro, I know😔"
Saran was thinking to officially declare this day as confusion day. They couldn't make out any sense at all. What did they mean by monami kabhi pyaar nahi kar payegi?! Did Karan close a way for Monami to her Emotions?? Sanju's Guilt-o-Meter was on top, Sid didn't love him, her heart ached at this thought, 2 Lives were at stake and that's why Sid proposed Sanju! Sid, His Mother and Sister???! What on earth was going on?!?! Sanju was feeling guilty and she had already decided to give her feelings a chance, and do what Monami tried to do 4 years ago, break the Walls around Sid. Karan being Karan, he processed everything comparitively slowly.
Sid and Monami Continued the talks
Sid - "We are the one who got hurt, we are the one who suffered, yet, we still apologised"
Monami - "And sometimes it feels like this Insta Post was specifically made for us"
Sid - "To be precise"