A/N: This is an oc I made for a roleplay server. Basically the context is that a scientist created a lover for her named Eve, and another guy, Lucan, joined in saying he liked Eve as well- which Alice was alright with sharing. The three enter a polyamorous relationship. A problem arises and Alice discovers Lucan only loved her and actually hated Eve. So she leaves them both cause fuck that twilight situation.
Smile.
Laugh.
Grin.
Alice, are you okay?
No, I'm not okay.
I want him to stay.
I want them to stay-
13.
2.
Lies.
But...
In the colors of the wall,
In the echoes of the halls
In every little speck of dust,
In the beautiful corrupted rust
Everything.
Nothing.
Something.
What's the use?
Where's my muse?
Come back to me.
Return to me.
Black.
Moss.
Red.
You were made for me,
That's why I failed to see
How badly I would treat you
How horribly that I miss you
Myosotis.
Hyacinth.
Lavender.
And you, the one I never saw
Yet it was my heart you managed to thaw
If I could merely reach out...
When did things start going south?
Mother.
Father.
Brother.
I am the monster you've created.
No love can enter, only hatred
Oh, my darling loves
Why would you think me a dove?
Eve.
Lucy.
Stars.
It was a beautiful night sky
Which I let out an adoring sigh
You were the constellations in a sea of stars
And I was an astronomer who watched from afar
Why?
Why?
Why?
Im not fine at all.
I miss you all.
What would it take?
I dont want to be hated.
Cold.
Warm.
Gone.
Everything is strange
I was always deranged
But why do you act like nothing happened?
Did nothing really happen?
You.
Me.
Us.
Ive always hated dreams
Though my mind always screamed
It was dreams who gave the most cruellest of blows
Of realities we could have chose
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I can't say it aloud.
So I wandered lonely as a cloud
Dreaming of you
Loving you.
Black.
White.
Gray.
My world is monochromatic without you.
Acting as if everything is alright is of no use
I need you both.
But I'm losing hope.
In myself.
In you.
In us.
We'll only destroy each other.
Is that what youd rather?
Part of me wishes to agree
But I dont want a beautiful disease.
I want something real.
I want something longer lasting.
I want...something.
Just being with you both isn't enough.
I don't care if it'll be rough.
I need your true colors.
I need the true painting.
October.
November.
December.
Those were the months I loved you
Dont worry, more months are due
Between the shadow and the soul
Just for you.
And only you.
Mga mahal ko, araw-araw.
