light shower

real love

IT'S BEEN A LONG WEEK—
school has been kicking your ass from the first period to tenth period and when you get home it doesn't stop there.

There's always something to yell at you about, whether you forgot to do the dishes because you were so tired mentally and physically from your long day at school that once your head hits the bed you wake up and it's already eleven o'clock at night it could be anything.

And school, school has just gotten too much in most of your classes you know you can do the work but it's just like you can't, you physically can't pick up your pen and do it.

You're not stupid.

You're depressed.

And even though you've been trying. Trying your hardest to push it down ignore it, get away from it you can't. Because it's been a constant thing and it's finally caught up to you.

So.

This week has been kicking your ass.

- - -

"Okay now that I got that off my chest."

You look down at your tear-stained notebook, You got your math homework done. Even though it cost you half your energy.

Your phone flashes with a text message.

"I thought I put do not disturb on my phone ..."

You did, but you've been ignoring everyone and everything around you for so long that your boyfriend miles couldn't keep quiet anymore.

Picking up your phone you read the message, from miles; I'm outside let me in.

Your face twists into discomfort and plight.

Were you ready to see him? after avoiding him for so long? Are you ready to face him and when he asks you why you've been ignoring him do you tell him you're depressed?

That you've been slowly falling apart.

Did you want him to see you like that?

"( y/n ). Please."

You find yourself in front of the door, hand out and ready to open it to let him in. Hesitation. You hesitate, arm falling back in place.

"( y/n ) please say something, anything. I haven't heard your voice in so long I think I'm going insane."

You go mute. Like he stole your voice.

"I can hear you breathing, why is your heart racing why can't you let me in."

You can't take this going up to the door you finally find the will to open it, and incomes miles flooding on top of you.

"Miles?" Is all you can get out.

He just stares at you perplexed, looking at every dip and curve of your face, the face he fell in love with.

His hands reach out to grasp your full cheeks and he just gapes at you. "Miles?" you question again but get nothing. His forehead meets yours and he drinks you in, "I've waited so long to hold you in my arms like this."

His eyes close and he draws in a deep breath.

"Mi amor," his eyes lock with yours, "why have you been ignoring me?"

You can't find the right words, the right way to tell him that you've been going through hell, you don't know how to tell him.

"( y/n ) what could be plaguing you this much to the point where you can't even form a sentence in my mere presence?"

And at that, you can't stop the fresh tears from streaming down your warm skin letting out a harsh whimper you call out to him, "miles I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." you cried.

The second he hears your voice break he sits up off you and pulls you in his lap holding you he lets you let it all out. That night you cried in that boy's arms under his warm embrace you showed him your true colors.

And once he heard the cries stop, "( y/n )?" you answer him with a light hm from your shattered vocal cords.

"I love you, so much."

That one sentence had your heart bloom out of your chest a smile stuck on your stupid face, he loved you.

Despite your flaws and your quirks he accepted them all, he embraced them and made them into something beautiful.

"Just because you feel like you're not worthy of my love doesn't mean you're not, I love you for you, nothing will ever change that, you can't get rid of me mi amor."

He said with a soft smile a single finger going up to wipe your wet cheeks.

"Now let's get off the floor, have you eaten?"

shaking your head no his smile falters.

"I'll order us something go sit down and find something for us to watch, okay?"

You listen to him silently. Walking towards the couch you pass him only for you to be pulled back your eyes focus and find his deep brown ones.

"I love you."

You lean into him for a kiss, "I love you too."