Tabaahi

8- Better Days

Nathaniel's POV.

I hate myself. What have I done?

I should've told her right when I found the papers in her dad's room. But I didn't. I was so upset and sad for her that I kept it hidden not wanting her to break down.

Now, I just don't know how to act around her anymore. Damn me.

All I had to do was to give the papers to Athena without a second thought. Why did I just froze there and began to question everything?

I couldn't move at all. I was so scared while holding the papers with my shaky hands...I was just so scared.

When I saw her broken, I felt broken as well. I didn't care how bad it could've gotten for my heart. I was sad and I wanted to just hug her until all the pieces of my heart stick back together.

Pacing in my room trying to figure out how I was going to deal with the mess I knew would get worse at any given time, Olivia suddenly entered my room.

She got in closing the door behind as she stood there staring at me from head to toe with a questionable look on her face.

Why is she looking at me like that?

"What?" I asked her.

"You might as well confess everything to me right now because I know damn well you're hiding something" she said reading me like an open book.

For the first time, I felt like cursing under my breath.

"It's nothing I promise" I tried but it was useless. It was Olivia questioning me after all.

"Nathan what is bothering you?" she asked me once again.

I kept silence hoping she could just drop it.

"Listen, Nathan I...I know I'm not the best sister you had. I am flawed and imperfect and I truly feel bad and sorry for how I've been towards you. Others opinions had controlled me until I couldn't take it anymore...to save myself from embarrassment I pushed you away and I feel like shit for that. Because, only now do I realize how grateful I should be to have a brother. With everything that's going on with Athena...it made me realize how ungrateful I was. And, I'm sorry, I admit I am a bad sister. But, can you please give me another chance?" it was the first time she had said this many words to me.

I mean, we barely even talk. But here she was, speaking to me like she truly needed to. It felt like she was waiting to say these words to me out loud.

"Please let me be the sister you always deserved to have" she added.

"I still can't tell you Olivia. You're Athena's friend and I'm afraid things will go upside down. I don't want to hurt her." I honestly said.

"What is it? I promise I won't say a word to her. As long as you tell me, I won't." she reassured.

I couldn't keep it in anymore and decided to trust her on this one.

"I...found these" I grabbed the papers from my desk and gave it to her before turning my back on her not being able to bare the reaction that was about to come out.

"I know. I should've gave it to Athena right away but-"

"You think she knows?" Olivia spoke in shock.

I turned to face her and saw the worry on her face.

"do you think she's aware? Because I don't think...oh my god. What if she has no idea about this?!" she eventually freaked out.

"And that's why I wasn't able to give it to her because I feared she wouldn't know" I honestly said.

"But...Nathan, we-"