Harry died at the young age of 17. It was a shame, he had so much to give. He was smart, beautiful and kind but he grew tired of worrying, tired of feeling insecure and tired of living.
So he stopped it all.
He finally did what was on his mind for...
Eleanor tried to kissed me... I hope you are nearly throwing up at the thought of me kissing someone other than you. I threw up in my mouth.
Okay, I'm going to set the scene.
After I messaged El saying that I would sneak out to meet her because everyone was telling me to, I got ready really quickly. I looked homeless and she still wanted to kiss me!!!! Anyway back to the moment, I was wearing sweats and a beanie because I didn't want to freeze my ears off. With a lot of skill like I was doing parkour, I climbed out my window and just dangled until I had the courage to let go. I landed awkwardly but by the time I walked to Eleanor's house, the aching wore off. I knocked on the door and she tried to invite me inside up to her room!
We both know what happens when you invite someone up to your room. Obviously, I didn't want to go up so I suggested going on a walk and surprisingly she agreed.
I'm going to skip the good part, well not good but you know what I meant. Grabbing my hand, she dragged me under this bridge with graffiti littered all under it and I started wittering on about how talented Zayn is (oh he painted this big mural for you, on the side of the bakery. I haven't seen it yet, I don't think I can stomach it. I'm sure it's beautiful though.) By the time I finished waffling, she was stood extremely close to me and when I turned my head, her eyes were closed and lips inches away from my own.
I froze.
My head all the sudden filled with images of you, images of your smile, your eyes, your curls, the cute mole near your jaw, the way nose slightly hooks and my ears were filled of your little giggles from that day.
The day we had our first kiss.
You were so happy that day, I didn't know why but when I asked you, you told me it's the beginning of spring break meaning that we could spend the whole week together. We got let out of school on that Friday lunch and made our way to field, our field where we doodled on the stone walls of the bridge and Sat, laughed and made flower crowns. That day we found ourself laying down in the long grass hiding from our mums that were yelling at us, telling us to come inside for dinner.
"Haz," Louis chuckled.
"Shhhh!" Harry hissed as he slapped his hand over Louis' mouth. Twisting and turning, Louis tried his best to flip them but the newly turned fourteen year old was already much taller and stronger than him and was practically sat on top of Louis body. So he did the only thing he could think of, he licked Harry's hand sending the curly haired boy into a wave of laughter.
"Stop that, they are going to hear us," he said in between uncontrollable giggles. The only way he would stop was if his mouth was covered. So that's what Louis did, he wriggled a hand free and slapped it over Harry's mouth just like what happens to him moments ago.
"Harry! Louis!" Their mums called out, causing them both to lock eyes. Their parents calls got louder.
"Jay! There's a pile of flowers here, they are definitely hiding from us."
Their voices were loud and close, but to be spotted in the tall grass you had to even nearer. Harry didn't want to risk it, he wanted to stay out all night, be with Louis all night. When he heard their names for the third time, he was desperate to hide so he pressed his chest against Louis'. He was almost laying flat against the boy the only thing that kept there faces a couple of inches apart were their hands that were held against each other's lips.
They stayed that way, eyes locked, until there mums gave up or searched some where else. Even though there was no longer a chance of being caught they didn't move a single thing, except when they both slipped there hands away, placing it on the others cheek or jaw and leaned in closer so there lips touched.
As soon as I felt legs either side of my body and your hand over my mouth, my body filled with electricity. It's like every time we touched I felt this rush. I wasn't sure what it was back then, but now I am. It was love. I am so madly in love with you, harry. I don't know who moved their hand first. deep down I think it was me and if it was then I'm glad that you let me kiss you.
I froze when I realised Eleanor wanted me to kiss her and I complete broke when she opens her eyes because I wasn't met with your green ones. I didn't see any green. I wanted to see green. Eleanor and I just looked at each other. She was confused, I was empty and you were gone.
I didn't kiss her. In fact, I ran away. But I'm not going to give up, I will chase for the rush I felt with you.
Because I don't want to feel empty forever,
Lou x
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