I Fell for You: Glance

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Dear Diary..

Life seems simple until that one point that hits it all at once

Just like the time when I have been in love with him sincerely,

I got broken because I trusted him

because he gave me his hand to hold

Then he cheated...

It turned off all of my lights...

or is it broken lights now? I don't understand anymore

I was so attached to him, now I feel lifeless

I laugh now without feeling it, and I don't have tears when I cry, I could talk all day covered with joy but it's literally nothing from the inside

you know what else is new? I became a work addict

but even that became a struggle to survive in a world filled with names before people, and speed rather than creativity

I couldn't get a job even with the hard work I did for lots of years. Thus, I officially said my last goodbye to my comfort zone

I welcomed void, hurricane of thoughts, and unstable feelings

all on repeat.

[Throwback]

"It's your day Marie, it's all yours" My supervisor spoke as I sat on the chair

and I bet, if not 100% sure he's into something again

"Why would it be?"

"You're going to Seoul"

"WHAT?" I spilled the water I was about to drink and coughed, I did not expect that kind of my day!

'My day' always said when he's about to give me a big project that shouldn't be given to such an intern like me, and so he rolls on his chair back and forth.. smirks and say a few words that he tried to arrange on his mind but failed to do so, thinking poor me would take the work desperately, because yes I do... I hold every small hope to one day get that job

but Seoul?! for real??

"Really?! are you sure?"

I'm not gonna lie, I  was happy the moment he said it... I kept wondering if he's mistaking me for someone else, it couldn't be. Endless thoughts popped into my head all within these few seconds, finally... I'll have chance to present my work, I'll be able to develop and be appreciated... in the place of my dreams, and in an entertainment company! is life finally giving me hope?

but I did realize he's calm...

We stared at each other both in silence,
Him anticipating my response and me too afraid of the consequences.

"Why? out of all the programmers out there, why would they pick someone that is far away and is still an intern??"

"Uh.. that.. well..

Marie you've been working here as an intern for a while now that I can confidently say even more than the employees themselves... I may not be here all the time but I clearly see the work results of any team you're involved with. Not everyone can be that good and manage the work distribution professionally with satisfying results and hard work, and so..."

"What is it?" I was filled with hope but I'm sure... I'm really sure that something's wrong

"They're stuck with the security and the coding in testing so I recommended you..."

"I see..."

Errors from a long project that is already done and I wasn't involved in at all to understand... now I know why he recommended me

It'd be a complicated work with such a high budget to hire someone for, but why the waste when there's the intern me ✨

"So what do you say?"

"I'll think about it..."

"What?! It's a lifetime opportunity and it's emergent... we need you there in two days.."

"In two days?!"

"It's almost the awards season and they're stuck..."

"Then... for the sake of adoring music...

I'm in, but perhaps if I did well you'd help me to get the job..?"

"Oh.. you know...

didn't I mention already?... You'll go there to continue the project then continue as intern there, if you proved yourself under my supervision, I might let you work there"

"Moving there to get the job?! You should've said that from the beginning!"

I shouted but quickly realized

"Ah sorry... I'm in"

*He laughed loud*

"I didn't know you'd be that happy to leave us, you know we're collaborating with that company and I'll have to check regularly there, I'll make sure to evaluate you whenever I come to visit and your deadline of evaluation will be 20th of august but your visa has six months more"

Of course, I'd be happy to leave someone that is always scolding us! are you kidding me? I'm leaving this sad environment and go somewhere that might appreciate my talents and abilities.. well, as I hope... at least now.. you realize I'm good and you couldn't deny it

That, but I smiled Instead and repeated no... I'm not happy to leave you...

and from there I began, they've been one of the busiest two days in my life. We planned things out, and studied the situation. I couldn't concentrate since it's lots of things to know in a short duration, the sections, the staff, the rules, etc...

"How about putting you with Minwoo? you're already close and he'd help you happily"

"I'll work with Woo?!"

am I dreaming? life is finally loving me and rewarding me, I'll work with my best friend in things I like, In a place, I love, alone

"Yes!"