Me Before You | Dahmin

chapter 18 | knock

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"Gabriel, stop disappearing at night. You are not batman and the town doesn't need you every now and then" I scold my brother as he puts on his coat "I'm busy fixing papers, excuse me"

"If you're too bored call Jimin over" I scoff at that "why do you always like it when Jimin sleeps over but flip out when it's Riguel?"

He rolled his eyes at me "duhh, I bet you and Jimin not even once kissed!" he remarked making me blush and hit him, he hissed in pain "shut it"

"What? I was just proposing my theory and it was right. See, I like more natural and kind men like him around you rather than a man you once dated" he said and turned away from me

"What if I said me and Jimin kissed?" I said as a joke and he laughs "he wouldn't dare. More like he can't even man up to do that"

Minutes passed and that bastard left me to 'fix some papers'. I rolled my eyes and sat on the couch, I turned the TV on

Wearing my tank top and pajama shorts I heard the doorbell ring, expecting it to be my brother I instantly grabbed the door and laughed "hah, look who came ba-"

Jimin's mouth popped open as his eyes smiled "you're glowing more than the streetlight" he glanced over my bare shoulder and my heart jumped "what in the world are you doing here?! it's late!"

He shrugs, putting a hand on my shoulder pushing ourselves inside, he closed the door and locked it "hey! who said you could come in!" he looked at me, urging me to shut my mouth but it intimidated me "a-and why did you lock the door"

"cuz it's late.." he whispered

this is unbelievable, he took his shoes off and next was his- "OH MY GOD WHY ARE YOU UNDRESSING?!" I said in panic when he threw his shirt over his head, he threw it at my face and his nostalgic sweet  scent captivated me "I got clothes on your room, dduh. can't sleep with that hot shirt on"

I followed him to my room because I don't trust him enough. I lean against the door and glance at him shamelessly opening my cabinet to search for an outfit he would feel fresh in

While doing so my gaze fell on his shirtless body, from my faint memories I already knew he was bulky and muscular but he looks more fit right now, he must have worked out more

I stare at his arms and the muscles flexing from every movements, the tattoos written on his pearl white skin and rings slipped on those tiny fingers. I want to tell him that I find those inks and objects beautiful and that I want him to show that to me more

But then...who am I to do that?

"do you like them?" I jump a little on my spot when Jimin walks towards me with still no shirt on but a sleeveless top dangling in between his fingers, my breath hitched as my back pushed itself more against the door as if I had somewhere else to lean on

My eyes betrayed my dignity and trailed down to his stomach, I heard him chuckle huskily and take my hand bringing it closer to his abs "go on. That's all yours."

I want to touch it. I'm going to touch it

Just when I was about to do it, I decided to trail my gaze up to his beautiful orbs when my eyes caught a tattoo on his left chest. My hands fell back "my name..."

He touched it and smiled "this is what I wanted to tell you that night but you didn't come" my fingers reached out to fondle it, remembering his promise to have my name closest to his chest because that's where his heart belongs

"Whatever I said to you back then, I meant them. I was sincere" he puts his shirt on and ruffles his dirty blonde hair "you probably thought about yourself more rather than what I would feel"

"No! That's not true" I said and touched his bicep, he flinched and blushed, his cheeks growing red "I always thought of you. Even when I left all I could think about was you. What you were doing and...if you hated you"

"I hated you." My eyes enlargen from his words and it broke my heart. What else was I expecting? "I hated you because you left just like that. But I love you more because you came back" his hand slipped to my cheek fondling my face with his gentle caress

He leaned closer and closer making my heart pound, I closed my eyes "I hoped you feel what I felt when you broke my heart" he said harshly to me as a whisper "I resented your smile for so long and tried getting you out of my head"

"But all I could do was love you" he pulled me closer and our lips were inches away from each other "do you feel the same?" I couldn't speak, the words lingering on the tip of my tongue turned dry. All I could think about was hips and the way I want to kiss him

I still want you, of course I do

You're the only one I want to be with. The only one I want to be with this close, the only one I want to love

I knew it for sure he was about to kiss me right now and I was ready, even closing my eyes for the fluttering butterfly moment when the door opened causing me to fall on the floor, I heard a girly scream "OH MY GOD WERE YOU PLANNING TO PILLOW TALK IN BED?!"

"What the hell. Don't you know the word knock?!" Jimin scrambles to help the poor me who fell on the floor, Gabriel grunted "dear juice mother, I was just joking when I said Jimin's such a baby to kiss you. You just had to try it out-"

"What?!" Jimin blows up from what he heard and my brother laughed "I told her my bet that you two haven't even kissed! would you believe that"

"We were just about to-" I cover his mouth and blushed. Gabriel raised a brow but laughed it off right after "whatever. I want a niece anyway" I gasped from his words while Jimin laughed

"Jimin use a condom and be quiet" he sent us a wink before shutting the door close, I pushed him away and roll my eyes "just go home"

"I want to kiss you" I suddenly lost my breath when he walks up to me again, stirring up the atmosphere to awkward. He holds both sides of my hand, intertwining them together so that he could pull me closer to him "please allow me"

If I kiss him, what would that mean? is it because he loves me? or is it because he wants to make fun of me? "who are you to kiss me?" I clenched my fists and drop my gaze down to my feet

"Dahyun"

"I don't love you anymore" I said harshly to push him away but he didn't budge. My fingers started to shake from the thought of lying to myself "I don't care what you're doing anymore. I don't want to know! I don't-"

He kissed me.