All those times
I was looking at you from afar,
For at least once
Have you looked back to see me too?
You and Me Series : 1
>Childhood friends AU
>Started: February 21, 2021
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If words could make up for the tears I shed through out the years, then they would be a million of heart shattering letters
The thought of leaving behind everything I loved in Seoul, was a torture. The feeling of breaking Jimin's trust and betraying him was a gruesome thing
He once said to me that once I leave he won't accept me again. The moment I turn my back on him there won't be anyone waiting for me to return
I wonder what went through his mind to let me back in his life. Is his love still pure like it was years ago, or is it tainted for revenge?
My eyes wondered to the sight of him smiling at the ground while he makes up random jokes. I stare at the aching stretch of his lips as he waits for a reaction "you're staring too much"
Jimin reached out his hand to softly pat my head and laugh "you miss me that much?" I missed you so bad. every minute apart from him was painful enough, I had to start all over again without my other half "shut up, Jimin"
My parents never really wanted me but Jimin did, he wanted everything of me and that gave me peace and a place where I could call home
But again, all of this assurance was from the man I met two years ago. Jimin changed, he's not the same as he was back then. Which makes me doubt everything he once told me
"Hey.." I called out from behind him and he turns to look at me "yes?"
Do you still want me as much as you did before?
did your feelings change
"nothing" I masked up the emotions with a big smile and walked up to him, I hated acting like a whole different person in front of him, I showed him all my ugly sides and he knows me the best. but I am doubting things, things are not the same as it was
"do you want to sleep in my house today?" he asks a familiar question and my heart thumps from it. I should calm down, there is no malice in the request, we used to do it before almost everyday "um, I'm not sure"
"why? are you shy?" he nudges me playfully shooing off all the awkward things in my mind, he assures me that the intention is just like our past rendezvous "fine, let me burrow your clothes"
I saw a glint of hollowness and confusion in his eyes before he tears them away and glances at the ground instead "sure. anything for you"
maybe something did change inside him
as promised, Jimin gave me his clothes and they were really large on me. I look around his house again and tried to look back on the subtle feeling his home used to give me whenever I had troubles with my family, I always slept here in Jimin's lovely bed.
