"You can obsess and obsess over how things ended—what you did wrong or could have done differently—but there's not much of a point. It's not like it'll change anything. So really, why worry?"
Everyone feels as though I must honestly just learn to forgive my aunt for the unimaginable things she's done to me.
But there's a burning rage inside of me that I keep suppressing.
Understand that many nights the blood I was cleaning off of the walls were mine .
I was cleaning my own blood off the walls.
I had to dig myself out of that mortifying hell hole.
ME!
Not Chris, Not August. ME
To hold on to a deep hatred is scary because you don't know what could happen as long as you let it fester inside of you like a blistering wound-
A knock on the door as I stood on the balcony sent my thought flying into the open air.
"What chu got stirring up in that big ass head of yours?" Chris asked looking at me with the door now adjacent.
I rolled my eyes,
"My business, mind yours" I smiled cheeky.
"Aht Aht I'm headin' out. Karruche is at Tyga's House kickin it with Chyna & August at his own crib"
I rolled my eyes at the sound of his name and nodded while laying my head down on the bed.
"You gon be straight? Big girl in a big beautiful home a million miles from home-"
"Good bye Christoper" I laughed a little and shooed him out.
He walked over and kissed my forehead and walked out closing the door not before mumbling,
"Girl ain't been here nun but three days and actin all stank ugh bou-gee"
I laughed and just laid in the bed adverting my eyes to the clock on the nightstand.
3 Pm.
I rolled out the bed and locked the door, making my way to the shower.
After taking care of my hygienic needs I slipped on a mauve pink two piece cropped set , light makeup and flat ironed my hair.
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Grabbing the extra set of keys Chris left behind for me and his G wagon keys I made my way out into the streets of Cali.
Letting the window down and letting the air hit me, I found a cute boutique on melrose.
Killing the ignition and making my way to the store I seen a incoming call from Bree.
I slid the answer bar and walked inside the cute establishment .
