Every time your heart is broken, a doorway cracks open to a world full of new beginnings, new opportunities.
Chris
We was in the car on our way to mama Sheila and I couldn't help to think ,I enjoy seeing my sister happy . I never told her but before mama died she wrote me a letter telling me what Lauren and a nigga named Zane did to her . Honesty I blame myself everyday . I wish I could go back in time & take her with me .
I swear to god leaving her and my parents is the hardest shit I've ever done . Lauren , that bitch got it coming like that nigga Zane .
" Hey Chris are you alright? "
" Yeah why ?"
" Cause we were just laughing and you got all serious . What's wrong I can see sadness flush in your face "
"Its just that when I left , you were 9 ,your 23 and now is the time I decide to branch out to you . It's wrong "
She sighed .
" Look that was the past , it's about right now and the future . You don't know how much this means to me ,Your efforts are greatly appreciated"
I nodded still unconvinced.
" We here " I said as I parked the car and once we both got out I locked the cars . We walked up the cobblestone path and I knocked in the door.
"Ouuu thea goes my baybehs" she said wiping her hand on the kitchen towell and hugged us both .
"Come in I'm cookin' gumbo" she ain't have to tell us twice .
We walked in and stood by & my lil princesses were on the floor to busy playing with their dolls to look at us.
Lo coughed . " Uncle Chris! , Aunty Lo!" They screamed and ran to hug our legs .
I picked up noonie and Lo picked up Kay Kay and Mya .
" Are you girls being good for granny?" She asked and they all nodded .
She hugged them and kissed their foreheads . " I missed you guys so much . I need to feel the love . Group hug !" I said and I turned around and Lo did too and we hugged eachother with them in the middle squishing them .
" Heyyyy! Aunty Lo , Uncle Chris yall squishin' us " noonie said
We put them on the floor and Mama called Lo, me being me I followed too cause I'm nosey . Being my neices they followed me as we sneaked into the kitchen .
" Yall go in da livin room this grown women bidness ! " she hollerd out and I stopped and we all crashed into eachother . I tapped Kay Kay's shoulder "Tag your it" I said before running away from them.
London
"Yes ma'm? " I asked taking a seat .
" Well I know I ain't seen or herd from you in fo months , but I wanna know . What goes on or went on in yo life . Tell me absolutely everything if you don't ima pop da piss outta you "
" Yes ma'm"
I love mama sheila like she's my own mother . Considering I lost my mom at a young age . Plus she knows what to say in every situation as well as I have numerous things to get off my chest .
I decided to start with the happy aspects then focus on the ones that hasn't allowed me to get a full nights rest.
"Well , I'm the youngest lawyer being 23 in a firm . It pays well , I have a nice 6 bedroom house and I won that supreme case "
" Mhmm , go on child "
" When mom died I was sent to live with Aunty Lauren , I didnt get any fair treatment" I chocked up a bit
She put the lid on the pot and turned the fire on low and sat next to me.
" The first few days were okay but for the rest was pure tourture . Senseless beatings , verbal abuse and starvation. Some days she'd lock me in my room and kept me home from school. I use to sneak out the window every morning at 6 to go to school . This one time she caught me climbing out the window and pulled me by my hair and threw me on the floor and beat me repeatedly , she let her friends join in the beatings and this one time she cut me all over .
And the very next day she kicked me so hard in the head I had a concussion and I was sent to the hospital . Later on in my life I met This guy named Zane Johnson and I thought I'd been saved and I was free. Of course I was wrong . Every time he got his liquid courage he to beat me , raped me and left me like I wasn't anything "
I let everything go and started crying.
" When Chris and August left I was alone. I knew you were in Huston but I had no way of getting in contact with you . So I ran away and this family found me and helped me . I finally had a family . Mama sheila , I take heavy dose sleeping pills now . Those horrific days still haunt me . "
She grabbed me into a tight bear hug and stroked my hair slightly soothing me .
" I told ya mama ta let you come with me when we was movin' . But of course she wanted you to branch out and know ya family members "
I just cried into her shoulder while she heild me .
This is the secure feeling I need.
